May you tame the beast, and bring peace on earth.... seek the good

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           Despite science's shapes, the core manifestation of why things happen the way it happens gives it a name and then starts the journey of curiosity to understand the hows, how it happens, how to treat it, how to interact with it, how to understand its change in interacting with the external and internal investments, and what are the results or consequences for this interactions when it occurs whether it is observed or unobserved. Science is the miracle God has designed since the creation of heaven and earth. He gave us this mystery to spend our entire life trying to understand parts and sometimes particles about it. Whatever humans try to understand or invest in is still not the whole truth about creation and its living mechanism that blows the mind when selecting only one piece. Science creates this sense of wonder that never ends within the human mind and soul. There is this persistent question I keep asking myself, "what if each person on this planet takes one piece of this mystery and starts to question it, rather than wasting a whole entire life on things that destroy the human existence within the universe? How many times does the beast control everything and everyone around? The beast will never be satisfied, as its hunger is like air unseen, untouchable yet felt and experienced in so many dramatic ways starting from jealousy, envy, hate, causing harm, and taking peace away from the human soul, community, and world. The beast is like the hot air that dries each drop of water, causing dramatic biological and ecological changes in the human cell. Traumatizing communities and individuals nourish the beast. So don't question why people do what they do; simply, when you experience the heat, the harm, understand that you are in an environment that nourishes the beast. Don't question why since this is how the beast gains its existence, causing harm, no good.

 

         Keep your thermometer in hand, like a thermostat that reads the temperature yet doesn't interact within. Take heart to stand your ground when the beast is hungry and won't stop until harm is done. Unfortunately, the beast doesn't even feel what they do, as it is like air vacant. Metaphysically it is designed the way it is to do its function to give life while the beast threatens life. The contrast within life, the good and the bad, the wise and the wild, exist to prove something within the universe that is the purpose of existence.  Even in the old testament, the beast showed up in many ways; in each event, they exist and are there for a purpose. In the modern age, the beast takes many forms, either in human shape, actions, or discoveries. Which presents a huge question about how far anything around is ethical or serves human life? It is the hardest question to find an answer to these days when human life becomes less valuable and is taken as an item to possess or release. It is hard to discern, yet keep your thermometer in hand, and be like a thermostat; get aware of the heat when it comes by surprise or crawls to harm; it takes courage and be aware that it is there for a reason. Remind yourself as much as there are bad things around, it is still good within you. The true creation of God is to do good. However, the beast doesn't like anything good. Their hunger is limitless, so take heart and remind yourself of the true seeds within that are created by God. The beast will move around in many forms and shapes, yet the only evidence of their existence is the heat that harms and does no good. 

     

                My hope to close 2022 is that there will be a moment of awakening for the goodness of God, within and around, a reconciliation to present hope and peace, and allow the endless grace of God to reign. Consider those who are grounded by the beast as they weren't aware of its nature and allowed the harm to be done unto them yet unaware till they faced tough realities and were spinning in the heat wheels. To seek the mercy of God to inter their life and renew the weary and the broken. To stand in the grace of God requires trillions of molecular energy to bring consciousness and tame the beast. It is exhausting and consumes human nature in a way humans can't see,  yet, they can experience and feel. May humans become aware of the beast and have the willpower to tame it to bring peace to the earth. Peace!! By: ME, "The Old Ancient Woman." 

Still the Journey within carry a million change.......

 

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        The image of a million words said or unsaid. Humans are social creatures by nature. They are created to be associated with one another. They were created to be together, facing the unknown and standing for one another. That sounds ideal thinking. A way that brings reality with it. How humans can relate now is a mystery, ambiguity, and doubt crept into the human soul and damaged the inner peace within. Even going with the flow leaves the inner soul tired and fatigued. How many encountered the image above, thinking that it is the truth, the reality, the everyday life of the best years humans can live. How many felt sorry that they could not reach this state of joy and belonging, putting a heavy load upon themselves that they don't belong, alienating themselves, and punishing that unwanted image in the mirror. What humans perceive as reality is just a perception. It can mean a million things all go back to human experience. The new age is controlled by the image that took us from what is true. Conflicting thinking and assumptions build millions of opinions around them, the mind becomes crowded, weary of holding any more assumptions, and wants to let them go, yet the perception is holding them back. Allowi=ing the fight within, the battle turns out to be an inner batter controlled by what is happening. And all are assumptions.

          Creating a silent dialogue only the soul can carry. Imagine 60,000 to 70,000 thoughts are created every minute in humans' heads and imagine if the human is prone to dwell on the negative one, their reality will project everything negative and rip joy out of the soul. Imagine that life is given freely and is torn apart by the negative thoughts humans allow to occupy a space in their heads. Imagine this energy is passing from one generation to another. Imagine humans are creating their own self-destructive tools and tools that ruin the lives of others. Imagine how much the body can take and how much the impact is on mortality and morbidity. Imagine a world living on self-affliction, sadness, anxiety, depression, and fear. Imagine that life's wonderful gift is wasted on nothingness but assumptions. Imagine how much the humans are leaving behind, subconsciously, and creating islands of unresolved emotions, conflicts, and mixed battles within. Imagine allowing all forces of self-defeat to take place in your life? Can't elaborate more than it is a wasted life. The life that ignores and denies the beauty within and around. How many years and decades many lost in this presumed life? How many are imprisoned in their own mental prison, unable to break free, or have a trusted, safe environment to break free?

             Mental cages can live and strive even when the human looks happy on the outside; millions become so clever to mask their true inner reality to fit in, get along, go with the flow, or be people pleasers fearing to be alone or left behind, they don't know that they are the ones that left themselves behind.  Merging with the crowd and causing loss of identity, boundaries, and self-awareness are the challenges confronting the young generation and the regrets of the older generation. The beginning and the end stages of life. Leaving the dash lost in its competitiveness, striving, racing, and chasing empty dreams. Loss of identity is not a new topic or challenge. It is something passed from one generation to another. What is normal at the beginning of the life, whether love or dysfunctional, will be normal when humans get older, and the cycle goes on. What is normal depends on what humans consider normal, each according to their own experiences. Grouping and segregation occur subconsciously. It may differ in style, yet its impact stays profound in wounding the human soul. Living within the cycle of others' expectations and denying the self's needs, emotions, and dreams is an old social justice toward human life. 

           The longing for the inner child calls for action to see, hear, feel, and realize the true self. Yet, this won't happen in the vacant; it has to have a united mind, body, soul, and spirit. Requires the 5's A- Acknowledge the strengths within. -Acknowledge milestones of life journey.-Acknowledge the support along the journey. - Acknowledge the setbacks that accumulate the breaking emotions, loss, grief, bitterness, and range. - Acknowledge your emotions just as they are, with no added assumptions. Say it, Acknowledge it, Validate it, and Find what lessons you learned from those emotions. What memories do they bring to your present moment? Why you felt this way? How did you adapt? Did the strategies you selected for adaptation serve you or harm you more than ever? Open- self- dialogue with constructive questions reveals what caused the damage and how much you want the change. Will it be when humans decide to put aside the outside image, the expectations, the chasing, the racing, the competition, and slow down for inner-self-conversation? To connect, relate, and reconcile with self before they can relate to anyone else. And stop repeating the pattern of false co-dependency, dysfunctional relationships, and creating more damage than could ever imagine, passing it to the young generation to fight battles they didn't have a choice in? I hope everyone can stop, listen to their breath, slow down and prepare for authentic inner-self conversations that will demystify all the assumptions, heal the damage, and create positive change. I hope you will see the precious creation of God. Peace !! By: ME "The Old Ancient Woman" 

You Are What you eat. However, you are what you eat, think, and experience!!!!!!

 

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       Since Covid- 19 the world makeup has been in an elevation of complex integration among humans, the environment, and their past and present experiences. Staying in control no longer makes sense. It reshaped the interaction, connection, and outcomes among humans. It revealed the heaviness of the journey that contradicts lives, the manifestations, and the results of what had happened. It is more profound than Star Wars Movies and Game of Thrones. Both are shows utilizing the darkest side of human imagination and the untouchable realities within the human mind. The new fact after Covid-19 reflected how intelligence can be used to diminish the existence of humans themselves with unseen manifestations. Many are surprised, shocked, and touched by the dramatic consequences of the pandemic. Since ages, wars and conflicts have shaped nations and the law of natural selection with its most powerful impact on survival mechanisms, yet with many agencies of adaptation. Survival for the fittest took new strategies; some went into hiding, others started collecting as many resources as possible, and others stood in the battle and went through it daily, witnessing the direct effects of the crisis. When you are on the frontline and arena, much understanding comes to your life, and it can make you either more authoritative or wiser. 

               The most challenging outcome after covid-19 is the socioeconomically and politically dominators over the flow of human lives. Leaving the flow of phenotypes to shape the neuropathology of diseases and immunity. The body reacts differently to the same things the person used to do before covid-19. It increases the susceptibility of genetic alteration and gene expression for what the body has been trying to suppress for decades. I wonder if humans are taught to understand their ecological nature early instead of learning things that lead to risky behaviors and indulgence in reactions that fuel the natural toxins to be reproduced within the cell. If genetic predisposition shapes 20% of disease manifestation, leaving 80% to environment and experiences that may shift human thinking. However, this simple equation has no place in human lives as systems built to promote political, social, and religious affiliations rather than human lives, the essential core humans are designed to be.        Politically, persons are seen through the lens of their party. Unfortunately, politics determine the economic benefits people gain from it. Resulting in divisions among people, families, and communities, the first infrastructure of the unhealthy foundation of human ecology. It influences the flow of services, who can get the most benefits, and who will be marked as underserved and isolated minorities. That means there is a black box of information locked down. It is not allowed to open it, talk about it, or refer to it among groups as they will be the ignored, least represented groups in the public arena, and relating to one of these groups will determine what you eat, drink, and wear. The limitation of the movement was exile within a free land. However, it is not allowed to open up about this undeclared nature of ecology as no answer exists. Shadows fighting shadows. Who is in power undeclared, the mastermind of the equation, is undeclared, leaving the most affected societies with psychological complexity and the most complex disorders to deal with. When the most challenging things happen within the community, the rest stand in shock, questioning how this happens; welcome to the black box strategy related to political division, who is who, and what they are allowed to be, and have that determine the way they think, and behave, ignoring how this strategy promotes the internal toxins in the body there for the person is naturally under the influence of the harmful toxic biochemistry that naturally takes place, instead of rethinking back how politics influenced human phenotypes negatively. 

Socially, Where you are from is the common dominator that paves the stage for how you will be treated, what you are allowed to do, who can be in contact or not in touch with you, who can relate or who can discriminate against you, the implicit bias that is the word that commonly used in psychology among individuals, and groups, subgroups, and communities. Suppose we understand that subgroups dynamics is the root cause of many setbacks, conflicts, and stress in any community. In that case, humans will start to notice how subgroups influence decision-making in any setting due to implicit bias (race, gender, color, ethnicity, language, attitude, beliefs, knowledge, language, and so many other factors.) Subgroup dynamic is mainly swept under the rug for their complexity and the integration of other factors, specifically when subgroups are considered the front line to keep the wheel running at an entry-level perspective. The goldfish in the fish tank, short term life, low-grade quality of life, unseen, unheard at the top level, the majority in any organization, and community, so eating each other is a natural selection law that determines the outcomes of the equation. Primarily they are used as flying monkeys to eradicate middle-class, therefore high- class remains at the top, then getting rid of the flying monkey won't be a hard, simple thing to do as they struggle with their self-identity, economic insecurities, fighting one another of possible to get to the next step and no regrets, mostly look as the alley at the beginning, till the purpose is done then strike once the goals are accomplished to checkmate. Primarily, the reptilian and mammalian brains are the controllers leaving the impulsivity of the limbic system to take control. Consequently, another factor in play to changing human phenotypes for more diseases to manifest. Motives, and agendas are the two main strategies in this perspective. 

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Religiously, Suppose God is used to promote political and social affiliation. Therefore, we are limiting the core fact of God the Indescribable, The most outstanding engineer, creator, BE, I am who I am. We limit the meaning of God to human agendas and motives, which will create conflict, division, unrest, hate, racism, and undesirable human actions leading to another change in human ecology and phenotypes and promoting a culture of sickness, illness, and suffering, disparity, insecurities, and the manifestation of toxic behaviors which adds to the burden of disease, and then people ask why I am suffering, or sick, ignoring the ecological impact on who you are, what you eat, thing, and experience from generation to generation leading to collective trauma that requires collective healing which is forming the most nightmare of controlling systems to persist. So, know thy self and do the best you can. It is never too late. Start small, and you will get there caring for the holy life God has given to you for free. And if you can identify some of the toxic ecologies in your life, start to work toward how to heal, eliminate these toxins from your life politically, socially, and religiously, and honor God in all that you do, Peace !! By: ME" the old ancient women." 

The Thousand Million thoughts that disrupt the coherence of life..

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             Have you ever thought about how alienated human is? The stress and life pressures are creating a different kind of human. Fear, intimidation, uncertainty, overwhelm, and denial of all emotions come from experiences humans face or deal with daily. This equation becomes so apparent around. Fear to speak, fear to miss out, fear to be. I am talking about being not doing. The industrial world created alienation within the human soul. The soul is missing. You experience other expectations from yourself. Has anyone ever meant to ask somebody what they really want to see in their life? Not only that what do you want from your world to support you to be, to feel, to have a voice, to have the time to be at your own pace. It fell so heavy on me today. "To be" reminds me of Descartes, "to be or not to be, that's the question." The core of human beingness. To be, to breathe, to exist, to feel, and to learn to express your voice. To honor the human God created within everyone. No matter their position, power, or authority. Specifically with those who can't make meaning of the world like others. The one that doesn't look like you speak like you wear like you have five-star experiences like you. Remembering my journey and how I was destined to experience all levels of living. It was devastating to go from ten stars living to zero stars, and between, now I understand God's teachings for me. He allowed me to go through the galaxy of"to be," not to copy, imitate, or pretend like others. 

         Taking a straightforward thing that I want to see in the world that " learning and understanding the biochemistry of emotions." This wonderful world tells the truth about what equation humans are producing and putting into their day to have the outcomes they experience. Whether pleasant or unpleasant experiences, it is embedded and printed in the cell membrane and manifests in who the person is at the moment. No one can escape the power of emotions and their influence on human behavior. They go together hand in hand. The tricky point that where these emotions come from and why they control human pathophysiology? How can they put the person down or make them fly high in the sky? How can they cause pain? And why human life can be determined by the outcomes of their emotions. What patterns are built up in the neuropathways that exist all over the human body? A fascinating world to dive into and journey into the human galaxy. Despite the world initially being based on diversity and differentiation, there is a link that connects all humans that's "being," a state that can come across every culture, gender, sex, age, color, and belief. A stat that takes the person into a challenge to act according to the build-up of the nervous system, lymphatic system, endocrine system, and gut-brain axis through the fantastic mechanism of the peripheral nervous system and sensation. That creates a sense of being and awakening conscious awareness through daily experiences. To be so essential to have a sense of safety. Another world that can shake the human world for the rest of their days is "Safety." Unfortunately, as much as the world economically, technologically, and materialistically developed, it took with it the essential element of being that's Safety. 

         Idiopathic experiences are rooted in the absence of a sense of safety. "Am I safe? So I can trust, and be, move without fear, have a voice without fear, to connect without fear. Fear is the shadow of nightmares, anxiety, depression, and many other modern world disorders. even the right to investigate what makes me afraid of why I am afraid is taken away due to the rule of expectations and how the person will be judged by others or being crushed by others. Therefore, do you have the strength to question your fears? It is a different experience from the norm in the culture and community. I witnessed many lives lived in the shadow of fears that they compromise their being and let down those who have no voice and have expectations that they will be seen, heard, and contained by them. And over time, the toxicity of the present time is taking away anything possible to change lives into being. The doing, the winning, the doing, the gaining, the.... endless list that consumed the human to be able to sense their fears, and what is the majority control in the equation, thoughts, choices, decisions, environment, old habits, beliefs, or the expectations from both sides, the person and the world around them. However, everyone was putting their lives in the hands of those running their own lives from fear, I say, "Sorry" you missed the real you, the real "to be" that was meant only for you. Unfortunately, despite those who know the game of emotions and how to use it for their own benefit, some don't have this internal engine to form their own understanding of their own world. Dependency is the crippling element in a weak equation, as its main principle is win-lose. Someone has to win, and someone has to lose. Therefore, there is no fairness. And another equation started to form is social justice, who am I ? and what my life means in this world? And does the world include or exclude? Select or deselect, build, or distract? More equations start to build the multilayer of the complex psyche of humans. All the equations are running from the rule of "Win-lose." Creating that chaotic mindset, running on thousands of million ANTs (Autonomic Negative Thoughts). Looking closely, try to understand the equations that shaped your fears, created the running ANTs, and diminished the "Being" within you emotionally, physiologically, and biologically changing your DNA, RNA reading, and functioning from the point of pain, confusion, or senseless you. By: ME, "The ancient old woman." 

Cultural Sensitivity..... and the cultural repetitive clashes

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                            I wish I could provide a glimpse of the contemporary paradigm about cultural sensitivity and how it represents itself in our everyday life. Every time I experience or witness a cross-cultural clash, I am struck by the lack of cultural openness about one another's differences without the background of cultural stereotypes. I am sure many experienced these questions include, "where are you from? What do you do for work? What brought you to the United States? Do you have an accent or being in that heated, finger-pointing, judgemental, and sharp comments through conversations if you dare to ask questions?

               Moreover, working within a hierarchy system, not a horizontal system where your position determines the limits of any dialogue, and written up for asking questions or asking for more information for better understanding. Or felt attacked, disrespected, or even unheard, and wrapped in this stereotype cultural assessment and judgment. So wrapped in the stories are being told about Easter- Western and non-Western cultures. Reports to form fixed persistent opinions about those who do not come from the same linear type of cultures addressed as westernized cultures by means, internal locus of control, individualistic, open to experiment, protected by the law, and mainly including specific regions of the world. Hence, the judgment is based on which part of the world the individual oblong, religion, political, and sociocultural contexts. Here, the individual is predisposed to stereotype types of living, behaving, thinking, and acting, the sociopsychological patterns that are followed to repeat the same outcomes for the benefit of keeping the same dynamics that shaped institutions, communities, and nations for centuries. Therefore, cultural clashes keep happening, and what persists exists. The individual may practice their native customs and traditions, business, education, and marriage within their own tribe, which is criticized from the Western point of view. However, when it comes to legal regulations and rules, the field of western culture understands its foundation to follow the law regarding cultural disputes. Meanwhile, Eastern- cultures feel entitled to certain judgments and how things should go. Some Easterns take the hermit mode approach, immerse themselves in understanding the western laws and get higher in their education to make it their competitive merit within the hierarchical cultural dynamics. 

                The approach takes lots of effort, sacrifices, and isolation from the real world, and they are focused on competing with the Western mindset. Even though this approach adds to the community's individualistic contributions, having well-educating individuals adds to the overall nation's productivity and economy. Yet, on the tribe level, the efforts are not enough. The herd still faces cultural clashes, as not everyone is equipped to take this hard road of immersion. Hence, the herd needs to be educated and use their simple language. A language that speaks to their way of expressing their distress and mental oppression. The language that understands their emotional, social, cultural, and political overwhelm and maneuvers through the ups and down within a culture that is foreign to them. Where everyone feels entitled to where they come from, even if they physically do not live there anymore. Yes, individuals can work, make money, have a family, and have a harmonious or conflicting social network. In both, the rooting process in law and regulations still persists. The entitlement process increases when the individual is surrounded by a conflicting network dynamic. Since this individual does not align with the in-group dynamic, experiences will show them as troublemakers, trouble seekers, in trouble with the law, doesn't respect the rule or follow them, perpetrators, can't trust them, and all negative connotation about their culture of origin follow them wherever they go. 

           Even though these cultural clashes are not allowed to be discussed openly with the individual due to cultural sensitivity rule, they will enable the scenario of negative connotations about specific groups and cultures to persist. Which creates the paradigm of cultural syndromes. Where the inner core of cultural understanding is dropped from the equation. And the materialistic approach is what is measured. The seen, the obvious, the declared, the learned, the transferrable stereotypical system to be applied when cultural clash shows up in the scene. Suppose any person on earth was born acknowledgeable of their nation's laws and regulations biologically. Therefore, there is no need for the foundation of the institutional constitutions, legislative and executive bodies that write, rewrite, modify, remodify, create, recreate, talk, listen, filter, and form each rule human beings come across. It is a continuum process of reforming institutions to protect the subject's rights with the mind of cultural diversity and coping with the new state of being. Suppose the individual lack Psychosociocultural education in interacting with human beings, their cultural clashes persist, discrimination, biases, delusional thinking, and injustice continues. In that case, stereotypical theories remain, and the same outcomes will show up, the same problems, the same hierarchy of communications, the same walking on the eggshell to express your voice where stereotypes and fixed approaches exist, and getting you nowhere but more of cultural clashes. The need for cultural openness to educate, inform, and show evidence is the hope for a healed culture from generational stereotypical theories. By. ME "The Old Ancient woman." 
 

Ladies and Gentlemen, Welcome to Brain Exhaustion Era....

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              First, I am not a neuroscientist, psychologist, psychiatrist, or any form of medical affiliation. However, I am a long-life learner, survivor, and Educator. I have been my own coach for 15 years, coming from the other side of pain. Learning a lot about myself and what is the causation and correlation of mental and physical debilitation across life. Living in an age of emotional disconnection, intergenerational trauma, and modern life challenges. Most adults function from a survival mode, carrying this heavy package of familial history background, environmental toxins, challenges, socioeconomic battles, and political and faith clashes. Battles that humankind brought onto themselves. In the hunters and gatherers era, finding methods to survive and fight the dangers, chasing the tigers, and running on high levels of cortisol and adrenaline, epinephrine, and norepinephrine. However, their biological build-up was different. They could survive and be exposed to the natural dangers surrounding them, living in caves, mountains, deserts, and water streams. They created the lifestyle that would enable them to survive, which may be explained through Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs ' Physical: food, sleep, sex, shelter, Safety: security of body, work, property, Belonging: love, affection, family, and sexual intimacy." Most of the daily routines were focused on the animal brain, reptilian, and mammalian brain due to the limitation of life, or the nature of life around them. Stress, since hunters and gatherers were the dominant drives of survival, Human life was at risk due to the natural environment. Hence, the drive for protection and safety was fear driven. However, they presented the pure image of human life without industrial development. They created their own tools for the better of their understanding. A question still persists: " Did they fight for self-esteem and self-actualization?" Were they living to search for a higher meaning than the animal brain? Was there any conceptualization of life beyond the physical and safety needs? How did they reflect on that? Who guided them? And if there is another story that may be shaped where we are right now, functioning from a brain exhaustion state that brings us to the "Survival Mode" yet from a modern-industrialized and urbanized perspective? 

        

          Why do humans still choose to function from an emotionally reactive state, jumpy, disruptive, aggressive, and unrest? Your energy tells a lot about the point of functioning in the world. An overloaded Autonomic Nervous System. Moving from hunters and gathers to the industrialized modern world added nothing but more stressors and complexity to life dynamics. The conflict between maintaining life, meeting life obligations, dysfunctional relationships, and political and religious conflicts that humans can carry negative consequences whether they agree or not. It tunes into loading your systems with more toxins, and negative emotions run from the constant loop of negative thinking, the "Default Mode Network." that depletes the brain's ability to do its work productively. Approximately 60,000 thoughts per day act as a distraction and turn the sympathetic nervous system. Activating the fight- flight- freeze response, accelerating the heart rate, high blood pressure, fluctuating rhythm in the heart, and breathing.  Allowing negative reactive impulsive, and disruptive behaviors to be dominant. Blocking the Positive-Task default mode to counterfeit the overwhelmed state of the nervous system, impacting how you think, react, and eat, depleting your essential neurotransmitters, and impacting organ function. Reaching this state of homeostasis imbalances. Physical dysfunction, and fatigue, impact the brain in a harmful way and can lead to the destruction of neural function. Decrease in concentration, poor performance on a task, poor engagement with the world. 

        The need for safety persists, and trust becomes an issue, leading to negative presumptions and poor decision-making. The constant state of conflict within the Mind- Body, the"I," "me," "myself," and others. Creates this state of "I" Vs. "Them," "us," Vs." them." This constant running equation in every thought, action, decision, and step a human operates within the world. Lots of implicit calculations where they belong, who should be there, who shouldn't;t be there, who is excluded, and who is included? How much that results in, and where it takes me further? How much does that bring back into their deposits? What are the financial burdens that occur from operating from this overthinking that is controlled by the attitudes, beliefs, social, cultural, and comparison mindset? Comparison within familial dynamics, society, community, tribe, groups, nations, and the world. Imagine modern human life still operating from the prejudice and biases among eastern vs. western, European Vs non-European, and African Vs. Non-African, White Vs. Non-white is the mental segregation mindset that implies the sociocultural, socioeconomically, sociopolitical, and socioreligious within in-groups and out-groups. Shaping the social class conflicts and the drive to dominate over a specific industry or service. The increased drive to control. To keep the status quo among either minority or majority. It doesn't matter which group a human belongs to or pretends to belong to anymore. 

       That leads to another survival mode behavior, which is masking. To get what we want, humans started to lean onto fake it till you make it, motives in disguise, and playing actors, and actresses in real-life theatre, wages are determined according to the part taking place. Masking real feelings and opinions, denying the inner voice of truth, or expressing the voice of opposite thoughts. In modern life, that is the core of conflicts among generations, races, and nations. It helps keep control. And maintain the social dynamic to that state that is supposed to reach the hidden goals. Maskingallowed many identities to be suppressed and hidden under the character being played. Masking can help humans to reach the place they want to get to. However, maintaining it is an expensive task. It can cost humans their health, productivity, relationships, and conscious state. Having healthy thinking, a healthy brain, and a healthy body with social masking is hard. It started when the person thought that was the way to earn the world. However, what is happening in reality, they are losing themselves. In social making, nothing will be satisfactory, nothing will be enough, and no one will be equivalent to the status that they reached the expense of their own identity. Imagine when humans are running from survival mode all their lives. What could be the type of mind and body they carry along the way? Is it worth it? How often have you battled within and kept your social masking intact? What risky behaviors do you adopt to ensure the mask is still there? Society will keep raising its challenges to see who is ready to drop the "self" and deny the "self" for endless short gains. Controlled by impulsive gratification toward the desires, and hunger for control, power, authority, and other gains come across at the expense of real life. Creating conflict becomes the currency for more drive to control. And life turns into endless fights for hidden motives and the drive to control. Which is not a healthy life. A life that drives pain, dis-ease, stress, and more division among humans. A life that drives conflict over peace. A life that doesn't honor God in each life around. It is a life for short, perished gains. So, what is up to your mind? Conflict or peace, Brain exhaustion, or Brain health?  By: ME, "The Old Ancient Woman" 

 

COLOR ME..........

                Sensing the world around you brings multiple memories and experiences. It brings all the heavy waves along the way, returning to the tides of the unwanted shores. It is that hate-love relationship with tendencies of never letting it go. The complexity of relationships contains millions of contradictory stories and tales that shaped the past and show the present controls the future to the dimensions of nowhere. The hate-love battles bring nothing but lost dreams and souls. Reminding you of the impossible goals, the tides of the trapped souls to breathe. As if breathing is a criminal act, it has to be judged over the years. Bringing the person into the cage of despair, the dark energies won't let go of the free spirit to breathe. It is an unhealthy dynamic to live and experience, leaving the mind-body and soul exhausted to walk one more step.

         The punishment of being who she is or how she thinks and behaves. It is this anger of not being able to control her. For centuries, movements have proclaimed freedom for all, yet realities tell something else. It is contradictory to claim something and practice the opposite due to the socioeconomically, sociopolitical, and religious norms. That put the human soul on a life-long trail to be the life-sentenced offender who will never be released, forgiven, or let go. The collective crime of abusing the human soul. Or maybe the human soul is something far away from the spirit of the natural law. The Man-made law designed the sociocultural constructs. Books bright are the opportunity for the street smart to play with. Sometimes power conflicts are in place. The endless confusion and tensions twist realities for targeted outcomes. Hence, life becomes like video games, only those who know how to play them get the point and understand the backstage scenarios. The socioeconomic race allowed subgroups to take place. The blueprint of what is happening lies in subgroups' hands and minds. So, no wonder when you witness specific tactics are in play. Whether to bring or individual down or, as political science can name it," Character Assassination" through planned adverse events targeting the antagonists. Competitive environments create negative returns on human health and the value of life. Hence, adding value to human life isn't clear enough for subgroups. The main focus is on how to keep the power, authority, and wealth in their pool as they progress together. 

           Competitiveness added more to the environmental stressors and switched the most productive environment into a highly toxic one. Cultural demeaning may be one of the strategies to clear the way for subgroups. Denying minorities' rights for equal opportunity as an individualistic tendency may require collective efforts from the antagonistic to make their rights be addressed and take action. Yet, culturally, societies failed to accept individualistic rights on equal feet with collective rights to be fulfilled. Still, the equity scale is leaning toward joint initiatives and deliberately denying individual approaches. Over decades, standing for your freedom has been a present fight that continues over life. Yet, the definition of freedom is lost.

          What do you mean by freedom? And who are you? What are your goals? And why did you seek an individualistic approach? To whom do you belong? What are your beliefs? Who do you serve with? Are you related to a group? And the endless investigative of rights denial tone continues, and you will walk through loops of suspension, blockages, and bumpy roads. You know that freedom has to be designed within specific frames, protocols, agreements, and in a corporate look. You come back to the group interests. Hence, it doesn't matter if you are seeking something good or not; you have to understand the subgroup mentality. Reminds you of the lost identity of the child when they start to grow their identity at the age of seven years old, till twelve years old. They want to be like those around them to feel a sense of belonging and "fit." Unfortunately, adopting such survival adaptation to the social norm can lead the person into challenging and adverse experiences that will impact them on the mental, emotional, physical, and psychological spectrum. Unfortunately, the survival strategies to belong and fit become the norm, and the person loses their own true identity. And that is substantial betrayal humans do toward each other when they forget to what extent this game they are allowed to play, the consequences in the long run, and the different phases of maturity. This social game embeds within daily living, and the person can't identify their endurance threshold. Until they fall into a complex state of mixed emotions, anger, resentment, confusion, sadness, restless thoughts of who am I? experiencing the lashes of rejection and being unable to communicate all these emotions with the requirements of the world around them. It is hard to find the same game of " belonging" and" being fit" still in play in adulthood. A game that promotes everything fake, more loss of self-identity, and betrayal of the true self. Projecting all the frustrations on one another opens the way to more toxicity and illness manifestations, including refusing to live anymore. You witness the heavy load the person carries through their walk, talk, and breathing. You notice avoiding eye contact. You experience the intellectual distances between mind and body. You experience and witness the mental cages humans designed for themselves out of fear of being their true selves. Judging all those who don't act, think, and live like them. To have the courage to voice your mind will be considered another loss or betrayal toward the environment around you. Hence, another loss and betrayal have to occur toward self. 

               However, at a particular moment, the person will reach their own limits, holding onto only self-observed realities. Realities that don't care a moment about them. When they realize how far they denied their own soul and healing from within. When their soul screams at them, shouting COLOR ME, color me with hope and grace. Color me with the gratitude of endless loving- kindness to your true self. Color me with a light of your mind and heart to do what brings life unto your day. All the judgment, entitlement, demeaning, or toxic behavior is a death of the mind and soul. So, rise up, keep moving, pick up your brush, and paint a new story of life, a life that is seeking only the beauty in the human soul, to strengthen your breath and hold you together till the end. Color me with a note of encouragement, uplifting, and word of life. Hear the sound of renewal and refreshing the tired soul. Color me. BY: ME," The Old Ancient Woman" 

The Good Walk and the life in between...........................

 

                            

            From the beginning of creating humans, God created the good human.  From the womb to the external world, humans are designed for good, to subdue all creations on earth. To create, to be the codesigners with God in creating a purposeful life. Life reflects God's unique gifts and talents naturally given to human beings. No matter the human is trying to escape this fact, God reveals it in multiple ways. Whether humans try to deny God's role in the good creation, it manifests in many ways. No matter the human theories, and hypotheses on how to mess up this good creation, God's people stand tall and strong in the face of all these odds. Once the human taps into the divine inner soul that belongs to the ONE and ONLY, everything else looks so small. Magnifying the presence of GOD and declaring His ownership over all of it. However, some differentiations factors are assigned to specific humans, not everyone. It may be destined to change all the expectations or may shake the ground around. Understanding the profound truth of it will lead to a questioning mind that won't stop thinking, exploring, investigating, testing, and discovering, and that is the deeper purpose of human beings to be challenged with that questive mind.

Suppose humans understand that fascinating task assigned to them. In that case, they will come at peace like the questive mind and create a life that facilitates the complex processes resulting from knowing, understanding, and making sense of what, who, where, when, why, and how. If humans understand that is normal, there will be a whole horizon of possibilities.   The task is not easy. It requires a full-time job. Is the task to understand more about humans, their connections, their communications, interactions, behaviors, habits, beliefs, attitudes, relationships, approaches, and lifestyle, or is it about understanding their organ systems, composition, function, and disruption on the biological construction. The vitality of its functioning to sustain balanced homeostasis? The task is to understand the ecological factors that come as a build-up structure for human life sustainability, including where they live, what they do for a living, what they breathe, wear, consume, the environmental external from the landscape, the bugs, the animals, the plants, the factories, the city setting, suburb setting or rural or even SubSaharan, volcanic ecology, earthquakes, tornados, Forests, Swamps, chemicals used in all purposes of life, and so much more that determine the economical setting for humans to do their equations that matches their motives, agendas, and prolonged life within unstable infrastructures socially, economically, politically, environmentally, and spiritually. Here, the human balanced existence is disrupted by facing the complexity of the ecological matrix that puts humans on a stunning platform to try to figure it out. 

               The distance will be created between the original creation of humans and the equation of the ecological matrix they are trying to figure out, creating a whole new world of personalities and figures. Each is trying to figure out their assignment with whatever in hand or they are obliged to face. Little do they know, they become an object within the ecological matrix controlled by minds that present their understanding and conclusions, making life categories. Sections the high, the middle, and the low are the quantifiable approaches that can measure who is who. The Label "That starts to sort humans, and dividedness takes place. " The Wealthiest, The poorest, the knowledgable, the wisest, the madest, the literate, the illiterate, The Economist, The biologist, The environmentalist, The ..... becomes your category and minimize the human questive mind is narrowed to a specific concentration.

               Meanwhile, it creates that separation, the type of walk of life. Shaping this differentiation in perception and perspective about everyday life. To carry the label "The," you must come to do some life work related to this label that may lead to the title you will carry through. Hence, " The" that you will be carrying will determine the connections, communications, interactions, and pathways within your ecological matrix, shaking the balance homeostasis, shaping new equations on the level of neurophysiological, psychoemotional, and the change of your molecules and the formation and the manifestation of all sorts of social-emotional disturbances, that create a whole new battle within. it is hard to reveal it as the human got consumed with the overwhelming emotional and biological status that subconsciously decides to give themselves another Label, another " The...." refusing to use the questive mind to investigate the truth of the matter that will set them free, and mold themselves into what the world will present so they will be offered a free label that is approved, diagnosed, and the pathway to handle it is known. To choose to question the unknown is complex and won't bring the same familiar results that save the cognitive headaches when facing the unknown. Walking the known road and hiding in the shadows of those who walked is more accessible and gets the results and outcomes that reoccur over ages. However, be careful. This known walk doesn't mean it is always a good walk. As the know walk includes the good, the bad, and the ugly.. it is heartbreaking when you witness those who consciously and subconsciously choose the ugly walk for self-destruction and the last component of humanism inside them. Here comes the brain structure that thrives on destruction, pain, hurt, manipulation, and destroys whatever good they sense in the world around them. The highest toxic neurochemical combination a human can witness and comprehend. It brings sadness, depression, fear, and many other negative emotions around them. Hence, it becomes more pathological that is hard to treat. The excellent human was created earlier and turns out to be a wild animal in a cage. Taming is an absolute equation to reach. The brain is fed on the suffering of others, diminishing others, bullying, insulting, degrade the good human around. when awareness comes in place, human perception may change, and understand why the bad and ugly are the options of survival, the taking over the limbic system, and infusing more toxicity to feel alive. These are the most challenging social justice case to deal with. Unfortunately, to tame the wild animal that becomes, only cages are the solution; the new label is self-destruction and feeding upon the toxic neurochemicals, and the human shape fades daily. Being kind to yourself is most needed, and rising above the difficulty is most needed. And next time you meet with humans, they are bringing the outcomes of the ecological matrix into play that may surprise you with facts you haven't been aware of before. Be aware humans now recognize one another by the labels put on them, not the excellent creation they once were. By: ME," The Old Ancient Woman." 

Culture Distress... The humanity modern pathology & Pathogens

 

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             2022 is almost taking the world into the normal phase of coping with distress through the constant state of pain that will result in collective traumatic events due to adversity. Hence, the question is, are we prepared to live with the expected phase imposed on humans in a culture of distress? Women are the highest race that manifests cultural pain in many forms of diseases and comorbidities. Your race, color, ethnicity, language, beliefs, religion, political, and cultural affiliation is the new scale of the social norm within a work frame of selective biases. You can get an education. However, it won't be the criteria for being selected. You can get the skill, but it won't mean you will be chosen. There will be all the time an outlet of exclusion. In times of adversity, the herd culture is dominant and controls everything around, ruling through the survival of the fittest biology rule. The fight is not only external depending on listed selection criteria. It is more inner conflict, running the pathological pathways within humans by changing their emotional molecules for the disease to manifest. The world has been forced to practice the silence principles. If you speak, you will be hurt, destroyed, and isolated. You will be stigmatized, trapped, stuck, and unable to break free no matter what you try to do. The rule of cultural distress for clustered groups rises in place and in play. Take a step back and notice the cultural conflict that manifests in everyday dynamics. It will give you a reflection on your place in the human matrix. It is a real eye-opening dynamic, as it will provide you with many cues and insights into why things happen the way they happen. It will create peace within your soul, a kind of peace even though there are tribulations around you. 

         

                        The human body doesn't live or change in isolation. It is a live antenna that collects information from all over the world around you, whether positive or negative communications, loud, silent, voice, or written. It is not a randomized or spontaneous communication that the body receives, and that is it. It is only the package being delivered to you, and your body has to break it down to make sense of it. It is a complex process as it is being processed biologically on a cellular level, creating neurological and physiological changes and transcribing the new version of your DNA, RNA, cell memory membrane, and body function. Whatever chemicals are being produced during this complex process of communication, coding, decoding, transcribing, and alteration, that is the person you are going to carry with you at that time, whether the computations result in the activation of good genes or bad genes which is being transcribed as gene expression (epigenetics) and environmental culture (epigenomics). Once you are aware that the world's communications and interactions are transcribing the new sequence of your DNA that is determinantal to your overall health, you have to stop and think, " Is this what I want for my life? Or do I have a role in it? Unfortunately, the socioeconomically, political, and cultural factors are writing the new sequence of human DNA. How long does this socio-cultural context in the play reflect health outcomes and the increase of the burden of disease? Only a few understood this life dynamic, prepared themselves for it, and decided to be within the 1% that these factors of cultural distress don't apply to them. They took an early step out of this paradigm. So interesting to more you go down at entry level living this dynamic is furiously in play. Where survival is the primary goal of the herd culture. To put down every opponent, or anyone is causing a threat for their climbing, and controlling whatever resources, potentials, opportunities, and even way of life to their cultural herd. Within every group, you will be able to identify the Alpha figure who is the game's mastermind to protect their herd pathways and guarantee they can get what they want. It isn't about equal opportunities, equal rights, fairness, and justice. Cultural conflict is not only about the group's survival. It is that pride that manifests in power, authority, and control. It is such a satisfying feeling for the herding group. Where the group gets their social title, position, and shiny fame to be in control. Particularly after drafting from intergenerational trauma, segregation, oppression, exclusion, and forgetting that many humans are in the same boat. Cultural distress is a global fact that collectively brought humans the highest challenge in survival. Here, the person is conflicting within the ongoing physical, behavioral, emotional, and spiritual conflict that determines everything in life, even who I can speak to and can't. Safety becomes the emergence dilemma since another DNA transcription is manifesting. 

           When the individual falls trapped in the pathological manifestation of cultural distress, the individual will be in the swirl of greatest tribulation, pain, trauma, and hurt, which doesn't manifest the free gift from above that is the free will to understand. Who are you? Where do you stand from the matrix? And if you play a part in this complex transcription process, whether morally, ethically, or culturally. It doesn't matter when you realize that you play a role in this complexity manifest. You will understand that you can't control whatever communications are passing by. They will happen anyway. The main thing that what type of communications you will determine to pay attention to and pick up on them. Intention plays the highest role in the picking up process, and what is next on the pathological stage, is your chemistry being built up, or are you picking up on messages that bring you down? You will realize that your life and health are the outcomes of the type of communication you choose consciously and unconsciously to pick up on them. Cultural distress is the present and future equation for humans to survive. It is your choice to decide what you want, even though you are surrounded by tribulations, trials, challenges, and traditions that contradict what you truly stand for. Take hold and break the cultural chains that its only motive is to control human life. Invite the fruit of the holy spirit to reign over your life, awaken your spiritual compass, to tune into the person you are meant to be. Decide not to be a number in the cultural distress equation that brings nothing but damage to the human body/mind/and soul. Be You with intention, and bear the storm. By:ME"The Old ancient woman " 

The paradigm...... The culture Equation ...

 

                      If we ask ourselves why history is trying to repeat itself? And why many are buying into it? And why all the taboo topics are hard to switch into openness, and tolerance of the complex differentiation backgrounds, ethnicity, race, social status, gender, age, color, and specifically political background, which all represent who you are communicating with and may determine the outcome of the conversations, actions, and outcomes. And that may not be an easy way of life. Humans judge everyone by this standard paradigm that is mentioned above. So you are no more a human, you are an outcome of an equation calculated so well by the societies that control groups around their communities. So, interesting, you are not taking part in making these equations, they are done on behalf of you, taking all the data collected about you, which will naturally put you in a specific category, and this category will determine how you will live, who will be around you, and what opportunities may be presented to you according to the care calculations are done on your behalf, and you are faced with either embracing them, shock by them, fight back, push back, or being included or excluded. And that happens at the lowest level of societies hierarchy till the highest level of societies, and if you will be the outlier, the outsider, the excluded equation; hence you have to understand where you are, or you will be swiped under the feet, and the trauma will be beyond your understanding that will impact how you think, react, and how healthy you will be. One important thing, in the matter of this equation, health and well-being are not a part of the equation, as the main parts of the equation are empowering specific groups, ethnicity, race, faith, culture, and political affiliation, however when you are an outsider equation whatever happens to you is not their business, as you don't belong or relate to any of the approved societal equations, so go figure it out, your distress, trauma that is caused by the outcome of the approved calculation, yet doesn't matter. And that is the socioeconomically, sociopolitical, and inner circles affiliations decision, not your choice, or decision, so welcome to the turmoil after the equation took place, put into practice. The motion caused by its processes has brought patterns, behaviors, and mindsets that are fixed on making the equation take place to present the new world, new societal laws that don't admit any other formula to take place; these equations are taking different labels to name few: racism, ageism, privilege, social oppression, and the list goes on these equations shift the paradigm of social behaviors, habits, attitudes, and drives the change into a complex combination that put the individual either on advantage, or disadvantage.

                 You will start to witness more secrecy within the inner groups, and you won't get clear answers; you are even not allowed to question or ask why things happen the way they do? It will be so exhausting if you decide to understand. You will be put in a loop of mysteriousness, hurt, damage, and causing havoc within your day. The power equation is the most challenging equation an outsider can face, as the master players are the most trusted and powerful influencers, and can shift the world of their tribe, their tribe only, and wreak havoc on the outside world. So welcome to fighting unseen giants, who plan backstage, and the performers, primary and secondary only seen on the scene, so you they are not the planner; they are the executors. So who to blame? No one; the only one to be blamed is you, as you are the dummy. You want to be in a place that isn't meant for you, designed for you, and the sorting process already has the algorithm set beforehand here, no question. And if it happened to ask, you will be labeled trouble maker, whistleblower, crazy, mentally confused, and an alien. 

            However, on the other side of the turmoil, there are multiple attempts to infuse different mindest and plant a culture of safety. However, it has a double-edged sword.  Pay close attention are such reformations occur to everyone around? everyone is included? So interestingly, many likes to talk about the problems, keep the problem going, and infuse the culture of problem dominance rather than having an actual window of tolerance to discuss solutions and bring the white elephant to the table. However, the white elephant analog has to exist and persist as it serves the inner society's motives and the fulfillment of the predesigned equation of who should have the power. The inner circle the do have a strong understanding, knowledge, and influence on the money pooling and who should be in the line to get into this pooling, how much, and what opportunities will offer this pooling. Hence, it is owning the knowledge, not the goodwill or the mission; it is the ability to run these trillions in the intended direction to fulfill the predesigned equations. Hence, it is a controlled economy toward specific socio economical, political, and economic outcomes. However, power and influence are in play for the sake of the predesigned equations; hence, human health and well-being aren't part of these equations. Who cares about a person? Doesn't belong to the predesigned equation, not part of the framework of the paradigm. Who do you think you are? What do you think you can do? and if you can, not in my predesigned equations, places, time, environment, or state. Hence, no wonder you are surrounded by flashy banners and printables, yet you couldn't see yourself within. accordingly, if your question,all you get are loops of misleading words, actions, and decisions, that keep you in the loop of disadvantage. Hence, prepare not to be impressed by the flashy banners, printables, broadcasting, publishing, or whatever channels are used to reach those who are supposed to be part of the predesigned equations. You will lose your years, times, health, mind, and even whatever you work hard to accomplish as you are not meant to be part of the equations. Yet, stop questioning. The more you ask, the more you will be faced with more frustration and disappointment as this is part of the predesigned equations, to bring frustration, disappointment, depression, and make fun of all your efforts, doubt your intention, plant mistrust around you, alienation, isolation, and brings you to a mental bubble that you don't belong here. Hence, you will experience hurt, and destruction is part of the game for the predesigned equations to take place very masking way. You will realize this with the outcomes of the equations. Pay attention to the outcomes, you will understand where you do belong in such a complex paradigm, and the choice is yours what to do next. Anyway, you don't matter in the predesigned equations paradigm. So don't worry, no one cares. That is a reality; that's the truth, it is hard. However, you have to accept it, and make your own choice. 

                     Another phase of predesigned equations, called diversity, is an indirect screening for who is in and who is out. The grass is not greener on the other side. it chatty patty, and negative Nancy in new clothes. Authentic diversity is when my voice is heard and seen; I will be labeled and alienated without being afraid to voice my voice. Ladies and gentlemen, do you see what I see? Come to a place of non-bias, and think, is this part of the world I want to belong to. The choice is yours; take your time, and pay close attention to the real intention around you. By: ME," The Old ancient woman." 

Self Migration

 

              Traveling into time, space, and history, the human mind is such a mystery hard to comprehend. Over the ages, humans are shaped by their experiences, and their ethnicity that determines how life may go for them. Meanwhile, there are these terminal occurrences that the human mind is shifting, reformed, or wiped out that's when conflicts, wars, poverty, and political control take place. Humans are no longer the same, or coming out of the crisis the same. Many occurrences urge the human mind to migrate within. Into a place, time, and memories to be created. A place where fear and control can be dissipated, putting a load on the human body to change on a molecular level, fear ingrained into the DNA, forming a new person controlled by the outside, seeing the other as the enemy has to be conquered, or wiped out. Creating this subconscious fights with the delusional perceptions taken unto the self. what a heavy load to carry, to be a determinate tool of the human perception of the other. Creating this inner dialogue of fearful realities, and destinies. Allowing fear to take over anything good possible. Creating communities run by fear, controlled by fear, as the outcomes can't be handled. 

           A natural question proposed itself, to what extent fear will be the main force for self migration, by means of self-alienation? Many are afraid to speak their truth for the fear of being rejected or being alienated even from self more, till they become shadows hardly to be seen. They are afraid to express their voice for the fear of being judged and labeled. And the label will be put on, will remain forever, controlling all aspects of their lives, alienating them to have true life, normal life. Fear to have a voice as they won't be liked by others, or they won't get this raise or promotion. Fear to miss out on the life that will give them the freedom that is apparent to the world that they are in control. Buying into the philosophy of control, and denying the inner voice of captivity. Captivity to what is demanded from them for the sake of a temporary prize. A prize at the expense of their own true life, and those who are impacted by their control. Keeping the truth hidden, and going with a mysterious, and deceptive attitude becomes the norm. 

         What an alienation of life itself? Running from the truth of who you truly are. Creating this false identity, walking on eggshells, listening to the authority of fear. In the past thinkers, philosophers, and scientists created their own silos to be themselves. They were humble sitting under the tree teaching whoever is interested, and making disciples, they dwelled in their own place creating, writing, and solving problems till now the science stands in owe before them. Creating the everlasting ensycholopedia for the next generation to make schools, and universities based on their own thoughts, and theories. Plato, Aristotle, Hippocrates, and many of those great minds paved the way for world enlightenment. However, the world has its own equation to rule over one another. A way that wipes out races, and groups, a way that diminishes the human mind as it is a dangerous tool for certain groups, races, ethnicity, culture, or even gender to have.  Humans through the ages created all tools to diminish the human mind, to alienate humans from themselves, creating a giant called fear in all shapes, tongues, and colors. How sad to understand that humans are diminishing humans by wiping out their minds, as it is a powerful tool for humans to know themselves, and find their purpose, however, if this purpose shapes a threat to those who are in favor of power, authority, and money, unfortunately, diminishing the human mind is the tool to be used. Humans diminishing humans, instead of humans building humans, uplifting, and creating a place of safety, and trust. Unfortunately, all these internal, and external battles and conflicts put pressure on the human systems, creating diseases, and terminal illnesses. Through the ages, humans are reaping the outcomes of their own actions, attitudes, and conflicts, resulting in many decades of abuse, neglect, violence, scattered minds, and captivity to whatever silence this voice, and dwelling on their fears. 

   

           Can you think of a day or a time in your life that hasn't a moment of fear that shifts the whole way of perception, and decision-making?  I doubt if your answer is," I can't think of any right now." The moment I started my question, something within you was triggered by fear. It is a reality, however, few can admit that there are many moments through their day controlled by fear, fear of missing out, fear of losing a job, fear of not being successful like everyone around, fear of poverty, fear of illness, fear of the unknown, fear of being unable to meet their obligations in life, fear of the next pandemic, fear of not having all what they dream of. However, does this prevent any of those to happen? Of course, not, they happen anyway. hence, the fear project itself whether the person wants it or not, as it becomes the norm of our new age. The age of unpredictability, living in the moment, and hoping everything will be ok. Anyway, I hope everyone stops for a little bit and listens to their fears, validates them, and starts reconciling with themselves, bringing themselves back from their long migration in a state of fear. and ask yourself is the journey worth it? Of course, it is. Humans will remain humans, and they demonstrate their weaknesses by being in control of everything around them. Creating fear into others' lives is a sign of weakness, not strength, so, try to listen to your fears, and start unlocking them by the strength of your faith in yourself, you are worth it. By: Me, "The old ancient woman." 

       

Carrying the vibes of Culture Toxicity

 

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            I can't believe I escaped May posting, It has been a heavy tense month of energy around. I wanted to write, and share my mind, however, There were other things occupying my world. I hope I am not the only one who sensed this heavy energy around. Specifically when we are going on the third year after the math of Covid- 19. Lessons are repeating themselves in cycles, and whatever is happening is reflecting the inner soul of a human. With increased density of competition, rivalry, and survival of the fittest. A time that allowed me to question many things, and not take everything for granted, nothing occur out of nothing. The conscious awareness may be overwhelmed by the amount of natural culture of toxicity among humans. Walking the philosophy me first, no matter what, and no matter what has been done. Sometimes the words " Me first" can indicate either positive or negative results, however, we experience both of them as part of the evolving journey from the ashes. The journey is yours, however, many give this journey to others to control, and fall into the trap of helplessness, hopelessness, and physically sick. Once the physical manifestations are shown clearly in your personal life, understand that big portion of these manifestations is due to the permission is given to culture toxicity to reign in your life. Starting from oversharing, overtrusting, and overgiving in the wrong places. The person won't realize this till the rock bottom of their fall and witnessing how many their death, and no empathy involved, the darkest part of the human soul controlling the scene. Imagine living in a culture that thrives on the death of human souls, how heavy is that, and how they got to this point of control to move through life through their unseen toxicity to destroy many souls as much as they can in the name of having the power, authority, and intelligence to use human souls for their advantage. what a heavy truth to be realized? Ignorance, dysfunctional upbringing, social isolation, language barriers, and demographic, geographic, economical, and political factors are the food of such dark souls. Understanding where the flaws and strike and attack cleverly in a way that shows the person's fault, and lack of skills, knowledge, and support. If you imagine a chess game, and when the master player forces the competitors to surrender, for them to declare " checkmate". It is a level of mastery that is eating more souls along the way. 

             When the dark soul reigns, many things in life become toxic and present a walk of thorns around. Sometimes surrounding the targeted soul in a way that the person couldn't see another way but to take the bait of the dark soul. Unfortunately, The world is almost 8 billion individuals, who carry a highly complex nature so far, due to the complexity of the human matrix, it is difficult to understand one matrix of them. what leads to such a level of toxicity? What causes such a high level of complexity? Among any explanation, it goes back to the dark seeds within human nature since Able and Cain. The seeds that led to the second sin, the greatest sin. A brother is jealous of their brother and the only way to feed this dark seed is to rapture his brother's soul. However, do you think their desire is accomplished and led to repentance and confessing the sin, yet, the seed represented the long-term seed in every human nature the wise and the beast soul do exist in each person. However, which soul do you feed most that is reflected through toxic cultures. Able, and Cain is living in each person to this day. Where consciousness and unconsciousness battle each other till the end of life. It is hard, it is complex, yet, they are still happening, and humans didn't learn the lesson no matter what, as the dark seed still is shown among human lives. leading to devastating, shocking realities, and many still asking " Why?" Forgetting the roots of the dark seed means that humans are deviated so far from the truth, allowing the dark seed to regrow, to exist in life. The battle is complex, the battle is exhausting, and each person is carrying a piece of it through fears, intimidations, ignoring, and being in alignment with the dark soul. The sin is still alive, and only God can reign at the end. 

           Knowing the Able, and Cain within you, may lead to uncovering many human battles within that are being ignored for centuries. What lies are you allowing to reign your life? Who are you giving control over your life? what are your fears? How do you allow toxicity to run your life? The question is yours as life is yours. Ask yourself when I invite this heavy load of toxicity into your life, what gain do you get out of that? did it make you happy? at peace, and being satisfied, or it is leading you to more envy, jealousy, greed, or revenge? Know your dark soul and acknowledge what fruits come out of it? Are they fruits that honor God? Or God is just a name? Many are walking in life allowing their dark soul to reign in the lives of others, and it is hard to stop and think about why I want my life this way? The world lies are controlling the dynamics around humans, it is tough to have free will, and reconciliation with the light soul, a soul that doesn't align with the world's demands. Demands that took away from the truth, an honorable life, a life that pleases only God. Honoring God in the world's eyes is considered insanity, and you are not mentally right. However, labeling, stigmatization, and calling people names won't end, that is how the dark soul thrives on the pain of others, and how much hurt they cause to others. That's the reality of the dark living soul runs by the delusional, confusion, and disruption of the light soul. The road is thorny, paved with oceans of blood, and cries for safety, security, and peace in a world don't accept either of them, a world that is inflamed with the heavy load of toxicity, and greed. Be ware of your dark soul. By: ME," the old incident woman" 

Impulsivity....... I want.. I need... I have...

 

Why our thoughts are so powerful? 

         A point of silence and nothingness led me to realize the influence of human thought on all body-mind functionality. This automatic telegraph keeps reading and writing trillions of thoughts throughout the day. Not only the process of the thought passing through, but it is also more than that. The thought triggers the connectivity of past experiences, leads to feelings, and feelings lead to the reactivity with impulses that impact the next decision the individual will take. However, there is something else that is changing the mechanism of how you react, and the severity of the reactivity. it is good to know not only the feeling that influences the behavior, but it is also more about your level of inflammation. Inflammation does influence the behavior of human beings. Inflammation can separate the prefrontal cortex and the Amygdala. The prefrontal cortex is the break that allows the individual to think with empathy, and compassion, and make conscious decisions based on is it worth it? However, this essential part of the brain completes its development by the age of 25 years old, some may take till 30 years old. Since life is filled with lots of disruptions social, emotional, economical, environmental that contribute to the dysfunctional foundation of the prefrontal cortex that impacts the override of the amygdala leading to the impulsive behaviors. Once impulsive behaviors started to shape the daily activities, they will be expressed more and more in the urge of I need..., I want... I have to.... with a vocal tone that reflects the irritability, discomfort, authoritative, commanding, and unfriendly communication among humans. Hence, there is a biochemical component of human impulsive behavior, which is the increase of the level of inflammation in the body. when it reaches the brain here the compromise of the human quality of life has been compromised. Chronic inflammation is an underlying root cause of anxiety, depression, and many other disorders. However, the chaotic state of the increased level of cytokines within the cell, leads to more manifestation of diseases, to name a few autoimmune disorders, candida, Dysbiosis, SIBO, and many other neurological disorders, if chronic inflammation is not addressed it hacks the brain, leads to severe damage, leading to neurodegenerative diseases. 

            However, knowing the root cause of factors that drive inflammation within the body, is a key factor to identify the biofilms and proteins, and what causes the elevation of such biomarkers driving the inflammation level. No one can deny that the world is living in more overwhelming factors starting from the food, personal care products, mold, medications, trauma, oral bacteria, topical bacteria found on the skin all over the body, high sugar diet, processed, preserved, cleaning products, lead, mercury, iron, copper, saturated fats, hydrogenated fats, fuel fumes, glyphosate, and more suppressed immune system. In addition to genetics, what the person is predisposed to. So, Humans are a complex matrix. recording this matrix starts with understanding where you are. Understand your gut health, how far your gut microbiome is sound, are there biomarkers of inflammation within your body, the level of it, what drives your blood sugar dysregulation, blood pressure, and what vitamin, minerals, and nutrients your body is deficient in? Are there any endotoxins, exoticness, or the ecology of your gut bacteria that will tell a lot about the intestinal permeability leading all unwanted toxins to go through the bloodstream causing more chronic inflammation, and unhealthy you? 

         Health by design starts with understanding where the person is at, doing the right lab tests work, and understanding that removing all the toxins that cause the inflammation requires radical commitment from the person to seriously take their health as their first priority.  Finding the right specialties, and the support to work with you toward a healthy you. Inflammation is the main drive of more impulsive behaviors, shaping this barrier between the prefrontal cortex and the Amygdala. The Amygdala is all about the fight, flight, freeze, fawn, or faint. feeding your body with a more inflammatory diet is inviting more hyperactivity of the amygdala, less sleep, insomnia, anxiety, depression, and more negative changes within the human biochemistry. Eating more inflammatory food will increase more production of the lactase enzyme, less oxygen flows into the body cells, less body regulation, and organ function. Functioning from dysfunctional biochemistry will negatively impact how you perceive the world, and will increase your reactive mood. The complex matrix of the human body is a must to know microbiology education for all. Humans are not functioning from system organs primarily, they are functioning on a cellular level. And how healthy is your cellular tissue, will determine how you think, how you feel, and how you act, which will shape who you are, how you perceive the world around you, your productivity level and more will impact your mortality and the quality of your life. By: ME " The Old Ancient Woman"