Each year of this journey provided a lesson to learn and acknowledged a world that already exists and I had no idea about it . Like the process of hard labor , very smoky cloudy blockage before you . Pieces of unexplained puzzles , scenes of intimidation where giants won and you are the little guy that is diminished under the pressing hands and hard hearts for your fragile structure , no foundation to settle in . Imagine a person who can't breathe or speak out as the blockage of streams and outlets to let the air in . Heavy to move , paralyzed to make a decision or taking a step a head . Can you imagine a person like this? Remembering that stone in one stag of my life , I know how far I walked and crossed , heavy dust storms and winds.
Taking a step out of such under the remains of a demolished life was step of faith and allowing His spirit to carry you away , to walk another step with the unknown . Getting out of the gated walls and being in the open wide world . Wandering with astonishment and unaware of so much things what do they mean and why they happen . Yet , no way , unable to choose or make a decision as you can't . Truly you can .So as a blind kitty has to follow the smell of her mother to help her to see the world , the new world she is in till the time comes and the kitty is able to open her eyes to see the world around and for sure imagine what the natural thing everybody notice ? The kitty is running all over the place and all she knows at this point that she wants to know the whole world in a short time as now she can see .
This uncontrolled behavior of the kitty started to be irritable for the grown up around and her her joy turned into a very deep dark trial that she wasn't ready for or knew about . The joy turned into shattering herself and drawing herself from the arena as she wants to understand what wrong she did and how to make it right . The isolation became her close friend towards another step in the journey to discover herself ,her soul and her existence within the universe around . Sorry universe for being an unwanted noise or company to be around . Sometimes being the black sheep in the middle of semi-groups of people ,really does not sound good . So, you have to carry your differences and disconnected to understand yourself first and to belong to yourself first so you will reach this point of soul connection within you .
What a step to take and learning in the open big world about your true self and to enjoy this journey and how far it will take you and accept your conclusions and take responsibilities of them that means alot . You deserve this journey as you don't want to lose yourself once again . Picking up your brokenness no matter happened before ,it is going to to make sense one day . Never forgetting who carried you till now and even then . It is a journey to unfold the mystery of such complicated life that is crazy and sound weird for the peaks and mountains within . Keep going , never stop as you are worthy of existence
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