A journey within

When life events roll you in their drama, you have to take a stand and not allowing them to identify you or your life. You have to stop everything in your hand and pay attention to what is going around you. Lots of details in your busyness you were not aware of them. Yes, you are not free to choose or decide the life you know God has made you for. Yes, you are being on the spot of drama and a continuous intention to traumatize you brain.

Unable to have clarity of mind and confusion and intimidation, uncomfortable type of life,met with masks of sweet soft voices that hide a deep hatred to the roots I came from. It is not me, it is my authenticity and my origin. paying a price on behalf of other millions who persecute and misplace Christians in Middle East. Iam a goal to take revenge of and not being tolerated with or accepted as I am .

When we talk about persecution, it is a generational chain and it lasts till the end of this age. Yes, Iam writing with full honest and transparency . The mind set of monks and nuns I live with does not exist around and it is not accepted. Actions tell the truth more than words. So, you are not free or accepted to be free and live your simple christian life that appeals to you and yet, it does not match the world around you. You offered to be there for everyone and at times of crisis and sickness, you are on your own, going through the motions of difficulties on your own, hard to find honest guidance . Facing another moment of labor with all its painful experiences in silence you don't want to talk about it anymore.

At the time of difficulty He is carrying you, allowing you to know that He is the owner of everything you are. Refusing to believe any more lies or sweet words or fake promises.  Refusing to repeart the old scenarios of taking advantage of your pains and times of difficulties. Refusing to experience the same moment again of believing the voices that say iam going to rescue you and once they take hold of your hand, they let it go and you fall drastically facing the double pain of the first pain and the fall all on your own. So who is giving the chance for this to happen over and over, it is you. As always I say it is all starts with you and what you are going to allow to be in your life.


This time pain in incurable and has no way back. This time is a clear message of who you truly are and how the world is seeing you as a perfect prey for so many hidden agendas and plots you are not aware of. Always the world is looking for a person to offer as a sacrifice for an ambitious agenda you are not aware of. And taking a stand against that you are declaring His Mighty Hands over your life . He made you the way you are and you deserve to be honored, valued, respected as a child of God. You deserve an equal chance of life like everybody around. You deserve to be respected for your choices and being a human who can be the way they know how God wants them to be. Christ gave his life so we may have life and our turn is to honor this life with all types of actions and missions to give back all the honor to him. He is the life, the way and the vine. If I do believe that Iam His child who is breathing the life He has given to me then He is within me and for me not against me.

To shake off the dust and get up and keep moving requires to walk the way on my own with Him and for Him.He knows me by name and He called me by name. So as old days, my relationship is only with Him and He knows me so well, choosing the hard way sometimes is the only way to make it trough tough times in our life. Putting my armor and having peace that He is with me in each step I take, no more loud voices only walking in trust with Him that He will guide me and lead me to the right path that meant for me in Jesus name.BY: Manal Eweis "The Old Ancient Woman"