Broken

I hope what I experience not only me who is learning that lesson in real live , with real interactions and situations. The word that come to me when I thought to write about what I have been experiencing in my journey of healing and putting my life into the right perspective fro the right angle of consciousness and understanding. I know I am not like before a fact i have to face and many things changed how I receive the world around me and I hope there is a different interpretation more than what i am learning, what made me call this piece of writing broken is this repetitive action from our kids in the class during playground time and it doesn't change from one child to another even there is one kid or 100 kids on the playground. All kids love biking so we have almost 4 bikes for them to use during outside time and there is one bike that let me learn more than what it looks like for each kid, for me it is a bike and it is functional , for all of them, they all see the same thing

I wish you could see what is wrong with this bike as each child can see, it is missing a screw in its seat. All gave it the same name" Broken" so they can not ride it or use it. The saw this missing part which doesn't affect the function of the seat or the bike. it is stable yet for them they see the flaw and judged the whole bike of being broken. So, day by day I started to connect the way the see the bike of our human nature who is ready right away to see the faut, the dysfunction and the brokenness in others and judge whole life upon this thing,

No wonder we are as adult see each other as this broken bike. We are focusing on what is wrong with the other, rather than the whole picture or what is needed to be done to help fix this brokenness. Hammering one another and the more hammers are used the more nails, screws are needed. You become an object to the hammer, only you feel the pain not the hammer. Only you start to believe that you are broken like this bike and can not be fixed or who care to fix a broken bike and there are many in a good state and are functioning more than this broken bike. You start to feel your dysfunction in the world you are in. Start to isolate yourself, no desire to be picked up and thrown away once your dysfunction is being discovered. You come to believe that you are of no use and being kept away from other good functioning bikes, each hand is trying to push you away from the way and not being as an obstacle in their way. Looking at your brokenness like this bike no one want to use it or see it still as a bike has a pedal and four wheels and the seat is ok .  Everyone love the new shiny good looking bike not the broken one. And yet, this is a bike, it is an object made by man and man can do millions of this bike as brand new, yet it needs effort and searching to make it functional again and yet why and the effort is worthless, a brand new bike will cost less than fixing a broken bike and hear what is broken is broken , no fix, turn your direction for so many other options around to pick from.

The market is filled with so many models and you can pick one if you want, even you can try many brand new till you get to the right deal . Yes, this is the market of goodies and yet the modern time is scaling the same value on objects to humans. Yes, we become goodies in the market to be in a display window and so easy to see our brokenness and focusing on our flaws that can not be fixed, we are looking to see the dysfunctional scenarios and judge a whole entire life upon that as if we become objects like the bike not humans who feel, think, make decisions , sometimes make mistakes , sometimes looking for others mistakes as if it is the game why we are here on earth and go in circles of endless dysfunctional broken structures within us and others without even giving the effort to yourself to remodel your structure of how God sees you and fix your eye on His guidance to fix you not the world. We bring our brokenness with us wherever we go as humans we are loaded with too much in life no need for more brokenness or hard stories to be added into our plate so turn around there are too many who had brand new life and a livable life much better than the broken ones. Looking to be fixed by humans will lead you to more and more frustrations and disappointment as I realized without turning it all to God He knows how, when and where it started and how and when to bring you back on track once again not as an object yet as a human who is able to accept her/ his brokenness and let God work on their lives .

Our brokenness is meant to redirect us to Him the beginner and the finisher, the Alpha and Omega He knows our flaws and faults, sins and each breath we take either a breath of relief or anger, rebellious or resentment , He made us and he understands how to bring His child back on track again. Trust in Him, the world will see only your brokenness, they will avoid you, ignore you and nothing will be clear before your eyes only God will help you to see through and lead you to His endless truth, He feels your hurt , your pain and everything you are going through so be sure that it is His will to fix your brokenness and bring everything new in His timing. Trust Him Trust Him and Him alone. By: Manal Eweis the old ancient woman