Wandering and wondering of who you are and what are you meant to be ? sure , a question never left my mind . Daily thinking and digging for the deep truth within you ? Sure . This is yes and that is no , making choices and decisions that may work ? why not , this is the human in me and I'll let it be .
To know the deep voice inside of you ...... to listen and be still to understand , that is the hard part in my life .... in a rage that makes the weaves within my mind and soul clash together to form such outrageous ways of thinking and vision to the world around me . why not , let it be .
To clear my mind from all negativity that may hinder my brain from seeing God's grace around me .Yes , that happens alot . That is the conflict between the past that keep chasing me in my dreams and day and my present which I choose to be present in it no more past , no more dragging myself into the same dark hole of unchanging hardness of minds and hearts . Bringing myself into the present , no matter where I start I know He is creating something within me and allowing me to draw closer to Him .
To know my wants and needs .To understand what God meant for me ..... to open my eyes to the truth that He is with me and He will never forsaken me nor leave me ..... to try to accept what I couldn't change .... have no control on or not my choice . To take a deep breath and inhale His gracious goodness and embrace the Holy spirit within my day , body , mind and soul .
Knowing the facts make it easier to understand which way I will go and what steps needed to be done.
Believing in God's presence and strength within me . Inviting Him into each day action and a step towards healing and revealing His plan for me . I am not a number or nothing in the universe .I am His creation who created in His image . How beautiful to think of that and act upon that and declaring His wonderful work with me . Yes, He is with me and will never leave me to the snare of the Fowler or deceit of the enemy .I am His wonderful piece of art that is shaped within me in my heart , mind and soul and that is what make me alive . To be His awesome creation that carries His wonders to the universe I exist in . Yes ,That is me .
God never meant for us to suffer , God is good , faithful and Right .It's me who needs to understand her wants and needs and what she wants to do with her life , what difference am I going to make .... Should I write a book about my day dreams ... or going in more deep water of exploring other places on the universe to understand the complexity that is created within human beings ....... or write and write till it is being published one day and present a new message to the minds and hearts and souls for those who can understand me .... or keeping on studying as a life student and never stop discovering more and more about how marvelous brains are created ....... or keeping on taking it day by day doing what I don't understand most of the time as a caregiver and receiving all these breaking feed backs that brought me into a world of limitation and isolation ..... Is there a reason when you receive lashes and you have no control over it ? By all means , I'll keep moving on , I'll never stop till one day my purpose and reason for assistance will reveal itself so clear to me .
who knows maybe all my dreams come true for someone ...... it may become the fantasy world for somebody to read about it ....... why not it is all human imagination that has no limits and reflects His Mighty power in creating us this way . Accept me the way I am or not this is the deal ,I'll keep moving on . , Say Hello or not I don't care anymore . By: Manal Eweis
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