walking the path of life can be some how tricky and not what is meant for you . Sometimes you come to a point to distinguish the illusion from reality and what things really are . Who hasn't been in a detour or a set back ? Who hasn't been broken by the storms that our complex life brings into the middle of our dreamy moment . Here you go , planning , thinking logically and envisioning how it could be . Spending days , months or even years , believing that yes that how things have to be or how you understand it should be .Reality and true life has something absolutely different from our beliefs and illusions .
For years since I landed a foreign country that open its doors for me . A broken and completely not functioning . Going through the awake after the hurricane ,believing many voices and faces of what you hear . It is the status of inability to judge , the crashed sounds keep playing in your ears , hindering you to see what it is real and what is not . It has been a very rough journey , when wolves come into your life in the clothes of lambs and you are unable to understand till the attack happens and you feel your bleeding , you can't bring it back this ability of clarity and understanding . The pain of the attack takes you by surprise that year after year you lose sense of the life of living human beings . It is a battle in the dark not the light so you can hardly be able to describe it or being believed as it is all about warping you in the frame of unstable mentality and criminality . Why , you wonder , I fled my own country for my freedom of faith and choice so what is going on ? Going on a psychological pain and inability to understand what is really going on. All you know that something doesn't seem or look right . Something wacky is being warped around me , taking me into the life of non-living and taking away the human in me . Why? you ask yourself hundreds of times I didn't give me life for this ? I didn't leave everything behind for such burden to be added into my life . Crying out to Jesus to lead me and guide me as He is the only one who owns me .You know from the deep bottom , year after year that there is something wrong and why me ?
Talking about the situation , turned everything to worse . Standing where you are and shouting enough is enough .There is a human in me that is created in the image of God . This creation has to be respected and honored for we are His own as we give to Him all honor and glory we are not a private property , puppets or lab rats . So hard to see yourself a piece of an experiment no value and here you stand and say it over and over " Enough is enough" ,He paid it all for me on the cross so I can have life , an eternal life . Putting me down is not Jesus way , judging me is not Jesus way , warping me in the frame of mental instability is not of Jesus way .He heals , He embrace us as we are , with him no condemnation no judgement .He welcomes us the way we are .Knowing our flaws and we are not here on earth to categories one another and decide who is in and who is out . Who can live and who can not . In Jesus I am alive and I am adopted ,Iam accepted and healed and redeemed . Putting me in that isolating environment , putting fears into my life , this is not the way of Jesus . Jesus asked us to be His witnesses on earth , till He comes back we are live witness on his unconditional love for us , his acceptance , his kindness , his mercy and never want us to be like those who were controlled by demonic powers and Jesus healed them , restoring many years of helplessness and torn out wit pain and grief .
Once Jesus touches our hearts ,He heals us and put this hope inside of me to stand strong in Him to know that He is the way , the life and the vine . If we are going to end each others lives for the sake of fame , authority , power and money .I have to stand for my life and say " enough is enough " and blessed is the one in Him I am found .Blessed is the one who lives in me .Blessed is the one who restores me . Blessed is the one who is leading me into the path of His righteousness . For 8 years in a journey filled with tears , trials and wandering ,He is leading me where He wants me to be . In Him we are united and are one .If we know that Christ is the only thing to hope for , no pain will be caused . No harm will be done to one another . No more tears, no more suffering .Rejoicing in his name , declaring His mighty power into our lives who makes beauty from the ashes .In Him I learn how to listen to His whispers and keep moving and never look back .
In Him no condemnation
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