" Finally , brothern , whatever things are true , whatever things are honest , whatever things are just , whatever things are pure , whatever things are lovely , whatever things are of good report , if there be anything virtue and if there be any praise , think on these things . Those things which ye have both learned , and received , and heard , and seen in me , do , and the God of peace shall be with you "
Philippians 4:8-9
we have been taken by so many thoughts around us . The world brings more negative than positive .That keep us to follow through God's plan for us in so many ways . Yes . Each day I make this decision to focus on what is God is whispering into my soul and mind and not allowing the negative forces to keep dragging me down . Day after day , there is a common pattern is keep repeating itself , those you invite into your life one day at a time of thirst for freedom .And yet that was misused and brought me to the point where I am right now . Pouring out your mind as a principal of honesty , to a degree I spelled out all my inner thoughts and feelings and that is not God's plan for me .As I allowed myself to be in this web of a different type of control . I allowed the stories to be told on my behalf to control how others see me . And that separated me from feeling a true life around .
The force of control is searching each hope in my life and cut it down . Searching for each thought of my mind to keep me in the dark spot I find myself going in circles it over and over ,each week the controlling force is squeezing me to a degree to built this wall between the true hope I found in Jesus Christ . My body has changed , I look older , sadder than before as I can't finish my breath of hope . Building walls and blocking stones that seem no hope only through the path of the controlling forces are trying to do . Year after year the pattern is repeating and leaving me in my desert , fighting my fears . They know what are my weakest points and what brings fear into me life . Fights , abuse and rejection and disrespect , tools are being used for 5 years now and I keep allowing this negative force into my life . Trying to run away , No way out ,so I isolated myself as my relationship is only with who created me . His word is the light that keeps me moving .
Imagining myself the controlling forces are trying to make others see me , is not from God and that is not the way of Jesus .God is so straight , direct and honest in His word .His word is my golden reference to go back to all the time . His equation of a life that honor Him and give Him all the glory is the true force that has to be grounded in my mind and soul .
Fighting equal forces of power , made me drained and exhausted . holding tight to God's promises and He is my lord and savior as He keeps carrying me through the valley of the shadow of death .I choose to put my mind on Him . He is the Only One to trust , to bevel . God never meant to harm us and the world promised to trouble us as in each corner there is this force of the world that is trying to satisfy their greed, ambitions and blind understanding of what God's will for us meant to be .
Yes, these controlling forces will never stop their attempts to drag you into their destructive powers that destroyed many so far . I haven't witnessed a victorious story , it is all about abuse , and bringing others down ,it is this fearful dark side that is hidden behind fake promises and pretending to be friends or they love you . The pattern is repeating itself each year .To bring you down that is the plan of controlling forces and only by the power of the name of Jesus all these delusions . will faint away .
God's word is a straight forward and He is showing me the way and yet it is being cut in many times, yet I choose to proceed even if I'll keep running by myself . The force that only promise you troubles and no settlement and wasting your life in manipulation and fake promises , this is not from God .His word is the sword that break the light from the darkness . Prayers for guidance and clarity and perseverance to keep moving in His way of love , trust and honesty .
This past anger , reenactment in me that triggers once I witness an abusive situation and true faces are being revealed . I go back directly to pray and cry out to Him and give thanks to reveal the truth for me . My journey is about freedom of faith and choice and that is my battle field and I choose to focus on what is from God .Our heavenly father and trusting Him He will lead my path and I lay my life down to Him to walk in peace , grace , faith and hope , no fears , no controlling no revenge . Some see that the way to bring justice for Jesus is to plot against those they think they are not Godly ,so they choose to be the Judge not God and this is not from Jesus .Some choose that in ordr to prove you are a christian you have to follow certain destination, others think you have to be condemned and then you'll be saved . For me this is not the way of Jesus . Some choose to use people in a very dramatic way to prove their faith and this is not the way of Jesus .
I choose to come back to the thoughts when I first invited Christ to be my lord and savior .He is my lord who brought this peace and joy once into my life and I choose to focus my mind on that .For His is the God of the widows and the fatherless . He is the father of the weak and the helpless . I choose to follow through His word as mentioned in the book of PHILIPPIANS 4:8-9 .
His paths are straight . He never manipulate or misuse us . God is the God of loving kindness . I refuse to believe the lies of the controlling forces that allow others to see me in a certain way . In the power of the name of Jesus I was set free . Choosing to focus on my Jesus who loves me , cares me and never condemn me . Who accepted me with all my brokenness and He is my healer , counselor and my guide. God my cry out to you to push away these forces and bring me to the place where my healing started ,the place that welcomed me unconditionally and accepted me , embraced me despite all the clouds around me . Allow me to dwell in your house of grace , hope and acceptance this is what I choose to focus my mind to . No turning back ...... No turning back ........ Jesus you are the one in control . For I am yours
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