Saturday, August 3, 2024

Understanding the SELF-self.....are you connected or do you want to reconnect?

 

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   Hello stranger.

      How often do you sense the destination within? How frequently are you challenged to face the self? How frequently have you experienced contradictory thoughts, feelings, and actions that either do not align with the self, or you are surprised you could ever think, feel, and act in such a manner and complexity? How often have you tried to escape from confronting the self and sought to hide behind a set of pretend, fake, and go-with-the-flow energies to do whatever others do without rethinking how this can relate to the true you, what will be the consequences, and how will it impact tomorrow's decision making? Here is the person who looks got it all together, who is going in circles. Here is one who is controller, explosive, jealous, destructive, envious, and hating on whoever demonstrates something they wish to have or prevents others from having it. That's the destructive trauma in action. Trauma is a lineage from one generation to the other, and how it will manifest is what societies play an integral role in promoting trauma for the sake of control and survival of the fittest or the biological rule. From the moment using food, shelter, sex, and manipulation to move around in the world to the philosophical principles of creating a better world to elevate from the human-animal brain to the human-human brain and finding the balance between both manifestations of the theoretical and practical instinct that control human dynamic the theory of jealousy, and love complex emotions that control my group's dynamics to serve a goal in the survival of the fittest approach based on the level of the gain. Complex emotion paradigms are increasing in societies that attain more power than they can imagine. Complex emotional schemas work gradually and spread within communities till they shift the focus from the self onto the others as opponents must be taken down; the psychological and mental schemas change the perception of realities and redirect the thinking and feelings, followed by actions that confirm these schemas. 

    Complex emotional schemas are the most challenging phenomenon to understand from the biopsychosocial model. The cognitive coherence among social norms, beliefs, behaviors, and actions is complex within the schema of the perceived self in contrast to the perceived world around the person. The foundation of inherited trauma facilitates the environmental and behavioral triggers to promote the interactions between what we know, how we know it, its validity, and reliability when it is compared by in-group and out-group rules blueprint, and what is accepted from biopsychosocial when it is controlled by socioeconomic status (SES), low income, unsafe environment, learned helplessness, and emotional conflicts between the wants and needs on micro, and macro level. Through the turmoil of events or adverse life events, people shape their perception of their life and the world around them, whether controlled by the whole world against them or the entire world is made for them to explore and learn how to navigate. However, I hope it is as simple as that since where the person is born influences their relationships and whether it is healthy or unhealthy to build what is called resiliency, grit or survival mode, maladaptation, and learning through initiation of the behavior of the strongest within the group, and here lies the most impactful or may be dangerous point of influence when the strongest person in the group promoting malfunctioning, abuse, destructive, risky behaviors that harm others, and increase the destructive attitudes from one generation to the other. Unfortunately, destructive behaviors change the neuroelctochmeincal networks and functions across the lifespan. Unhealthy relationships, behaviors, and actions become the norm, and even crime becomes a game of joy and survival. 

  When the person normalizes unhealthy behavior like gaslighting, bullying, anger as a source of social justice, harm physically and emotionally, and abusing position or social status, to name a few, for the person, it is the norm. They have not been exposed to or learned different behaviors; hence, to be strong, you have to abuse others and your power; thus, you attain satisfaction or existence despite the voices that understand that this is destructive trauma talks. Unfortunately, it is depleting and exhausting when the group interacts from a destructive trauma lens. It is a power struggle, gaining control over everything around, abusing power to maintain the sense of control, and getting it all in place. 

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     The conflict between the self and the perceived world is fragmented; anger and frustration drive actions deep inside. The body language, facial expression, and tone of voice can tell a lot about whether the person is acting from a destructive trauma perspective or the philosophy of creating a better world regardless of the chaos around. However, the complexity of emotions, beliefs, values, and sociopolitical influences shift perspectives about what is real? What is true? And what is perceived? Increasing the external and internal conflict within the environmental settings and human interactions. Humans do not live in silos anymore. The internet, the flow of means of transportation, the media, and the internal information dissemination, knowledge, closed- groups and open communities are followed with an extensive amount of information that can cause confusion, disruption, or conflict of interests and increase the tension surface across different groups with different goals, and intentions. Coating realities with misinformation can be a destructive tool of individual existence. At the same time, emotional complexity revolves around control, manipulation, and a sense of exclusion that is a human survival mechanism for control. The weakest and most vulnerable persons will easily fall victim under the pressure of the emotional complexity mechanisms when it is fully aware of the person's trauma, weaknesses, and vulnerability triggers that can create surface tension in place and win the scene. 
    
    The most challenging war is not weapon wars; it is the socioeconomic, mental, psychological, emotional, and closed groups' schemas and strategies to control. While socioeconomic and political conflict increases, the vulnerable diminish, and they are left behind. It is no longer about individual influence but the actions of the closed group. The individual is not considered in the equation. Some call it the anthropocentrism cluster rather than the ecocentrism perspective. Opinions are only opinions, not values or facts; hence, the lower socioeconomic status, the more opinions influence closed groups, limit others' perspectives, lack respect for disagreement, and increase surface tension. Suppose you ever asked why I am treated this way. In that case, you have to go back to the roots of anthropocentrism, conflict of interest on a closed group level, age, gender, race, language, level of education, income, familial history, and the environment that controls the group dynamic. It is a lifelong journey of self-discovery; why am I treated this way if you want to differentiate? And who am I? What is my purpose? How can I connect with the self first and reverse the go-with-the-flow mechanisms, bury my voice, and fake it till I make it, or I have to do what others are doing even if it is immoral, injustice, and causing harm to others physically, emotionally, psychologically, socio-economic, and controlled by global political views, and mass media misinformation. 
      The destructive trauma layers have been building another human within the human, separating them from themselves and allowing the external to see the other as the competitive opponent, unwanted in the place, excluded, and disrespected. The narrative of destructive trauma is the most challenging complex within the psychological phenomena. It is like a matrix of maladaptive behaviors, habits, and social norms passed from one generation to the other. 


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  The highest moment is when years pass, the person faces realities when expectations do not meet the outcomes, the psychosocial paradigm challenged with learned helplessness, the world happened to me instated of what lessons I will learn here? How did I get here? Goes back to the first moment the other perception is put onto the person's perception of the other; it is cyclical and 360 degrees, operating from the subconscious mind of no way out. Iam trapped, and Iam what happened to me conflicting with moments of 90 degrees hemisphere of back and forth of complex emotions, the pendulum effect back and forth, there is a way out, there is no way out, the psychosocial, emotional impact that makes contestant vibrations of shaking the conscious, emotional mind with instability, and overwhelm loading the body with chemo toxins, and changing the neurocircuits, and the pathophysiology of the human anatomy. However, it is leaving the person battling this psychosocial toxicity effect on an internal level, reflected in behaviors and maladaptive decision-making externally influencing the well-being, health, and interactions among one another. It is not only about what you eat, where you live, and work; it is about the toxic load of destructive trauma that leads the way groups think, behave, and act. It is a tornado in a bottle ready to explode in the face of whoever opposes how they feel, behave, and act. It has a triple impact on the individual stress level, triggering past trauma, leading to malfunctioning groups from within, and reflecting on the outside world.
 

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     As long as it took generation to generation to bring the same outcomes to the new generation acting from the same point of destructive trauma to whatever triggers the emotional pain within, the case is lost. While defenders become accusers, and offenders become the leading players in the arena of life, driving the closed groups' inner force toward chaos and disruption and shifting the direction to all maladaptive psychosocial, emotional, political, and environmental functioning forgetting about the respect of human subject, caring for individuals welfare, equality, justice, and the freedom of voice, and choice, conflicting what is being said and what is already done? My apology, stranger; you are in an era when disruption is the norm, chaos is the way out, and neglecting human rights is part of the complex emotional schemas in a challenging world, exaggerating conflict and laughing at peace. Whenever you find something in this article that resonates with you and your journey in life, take a moment to reconnect with the self and ask, is there a different way to live and let live? Is there something I have to work on? Why am I so defensive toward others? Why I collaborate in bringing chaos into others lives? What kind of person this made me, and what type of person I used to be? Reflect on self-perception in the right of generational trauma, the connection between the perceived beliefs and the genuine connection with the self, relationships that enabled the destructive trauma to be the social norms, and how to take a stand if this brings more conflicts and diminishes the inner peace. Understanding that each group around serves only the inner-group interests, protecting them, and acting from a survival point of view to remain in control, existence, and power within. Understand that destructive trauma not only deforms the perception of life around you but also the interaction and perception of the other and the world around you. I wish you well and hope you will stop for a second and change one thing at a time to reconnect with the SELF to restore the self. Peace!!! By: Me, "The old ancient woman." 

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