https://images.search.yahoo.com/search/images?p=Tangled+minds+images&fr=mcafee&type= The days go by, the years fly, and there are times when people can not see anything but the shadows of their steps. When they forget themselves in the swirl of others. Tangled in meaningless narratives, they deny the sense of consciousness to question their realities. Does this reflect who they are, or do they forget themselves in the hope of pleasing others? How many lost themselves in the shadow of the other, waiting for something in return. All they get is more void and a tangled thread of endless senseless battles, chasing the delusions of the world presented amid the thirst to find a way to be free. The hope becomes a nightmare; deep and complex realities go beyond what the body and soul are built for one day. How come a person couldn't sense their own authentic life and present it within the life around them. How come years, decades, the person goes invisible that the moment they realize their invisibility, they break apart, and their request of going unheard, unseen, unaccepted, and being pushed harshly by many narratives wishing to silence the voice, the presence, and the hope of being seen, heard, and noticed. Whatever was neglected for decades has been forgotten, unwanted, and avoided. The heaviness of the reality can not be taken anymore. The person sees a closed road, unable to breathe, unable to think, got overwhelmed that they silenced the last hope of being alive. It is a moment, a second, of shutting down when the separation between the felt, the seen, the heard, the lived, and the perception of the world at this moment doesn't make any sense to them. They believe the moment of darkness numbness, and go senseless about their lives, and gradually reach what they think is the way to freedom and self-harm, and nothing happens but the harsh fact that they are deeper into the dark.
The sense and perception of the other is numbed, separated from the simple perception of life. Sometimes, a human reaches this point without even being noticed. The complexity of life, relationships, and connections has been broken at an early age when differentiation between facts and perception is mixed up. The loss of the will to fight back, to question the perception, and the tangled thoughts, feelings, emotions, attitudes, and conflicting souls of losing the sense of self and the meaning of life. The battle is not only on the emotional side; it exceeds what is observed, it is beyond the felt. The physiopathology, neuropathology, and overwhelming factors direct the behavior despite the facts. The entangled persona is in the delusional perceptions of a world they welcomed one day in their lives, ignoring its creeping toxic effect on their existence and being. Human tendencies of control and denying whatever threatened this agency of control paved the way for many injustices, from tangible and intangible constant battles for power. The more grandiosity within, the more control is desired, which blocks the sense of consciousness. Humans become objects, a tool to satisfy this thirst for grandiosity and use the thirst of the other to be seen, heard, and voiced for a limited time.
The awakening of the hopeful person becomes so late that they want to disappear, go unseen, unheard, and shut down. It is too late to go back into the choices, wishes, hopes, and dreams that once played in the mind, causing these tangled threads for connections, relationships, reactions, and behaviors that harm more than making anything good in the hopeful, wishful life. No more ability to see something that makes sense, the world turned upside down, what is left is aches, pain, and sorrow, that is not life, the person fears to face the outcomes and wants to run away, find escape even from the self, as the most complicated sorrow is about the lost self, the wasting times, the wishful dreams that were once believed and saved in the tangled mind, unable to find a way in real life. How many are trapped in their hopeful, wishful life? Millions or even billions lost their way from meaning and a genuine sense of life. The cycle is enlarged to become the dark hallow. Whoever is grounded by the hopeful, wishful life falls into the hallow for nothing but the void, the sadness, and the unbearable pain of what once believed or thought it could be. How many humans have been witnessed to fall apart without being seen, heard, understood, or even allowed to exist? There is a fact some are equipped with innate resiliency; some of their resiliency takes another form of resistance and shutting down. Some have an inherent sense of moral compass, others are void, and don't even know if it exists. Some are trying hard, others fall apart from whatever comes their way and lose their way in the shadow of others.
Human life is precious, yet some have no sense of its meaning or value. Hence, you never know what world you are surrounded with, a world to heal or destroy, a world to hold you together or bring you apart, a world that shares the same stand for human life, or it is a useless thing to think about? it is a complex equation that can not be solved unless the mind starts to untangle all false beliefs stuffed through the years, and clear the way for what is accurate, and healing to the painful times where nothing left but silence, and shutting down. Peace!!!! By: ME, "The old ancient woman."
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