Impulsivity....... I want.. I need... I have...

 

Why our thoughts are so powerful? 

         A point of silence and nothingness led me to realize the influence of human thought on all body-mind functionality. This automatic telegraph keeps reading and writing trillions of thoughts throughout the day. Not only the process of the thought passing through, but it is also more than that. The thought triggers the connectivity of past experiences, leads to feelings, and feelings lead to the reactivity with impulses that impact the next decision the individual will take. However, there is something else that is changing the mechanism of how you react, and the severity of the reactivity. it is good to know not only the feeling that influences the behavior, but it is also more about your level of inflammation. Inflammation does influence the behavior of human beings. Inflammation can separate the prefrontal cortex and the Amygdala. The prefrontal cortex is the break that allows the individual to think with empathy, and compassion, and make conscious decisions based on is it worth it? However, this essential part of the brain completes its development by the age of 25 years old, some may take till 30 years old. Since life is filled with lots of disruptions social, emotional, economical, environmental that contribute to the dysfunctional foundation of the prefrontal cortex that impacts the override of the amygdala leading to the impulsive behaviors. Once impulsive behaviors started to shape the daily activities, they will be expressed more and more in the urge of I need..., I want... I have to.... with a vocal tone that reflects the irritability, discomfort, authoritative, commanding, and unfriendly communication among humans. Hence, there is a biochemical component of human impulsive behavior, which is the increase of the level of inflammation in the body. when it reaches the brain here the compromise of the human quality of life has been compromised. Chronic inflammation is an underlying root cause of anxiety, depression, and many other disorders. However, the chaotic state of the increased level of cytokines within the cell, leads to more manifestation of diseases, to name a few autoimmune disorders, candida, Dysbiosis, SIBO, and many other neurological disorders, if chronic inflammation is not addressed it hacks the brain, leads to severe damage, leading to neurodegenerative diseases. 

            However, knowing the root cause of factors that drive inflammation within the body, is a key factor to identify the biofilms and proteins, and what causes the elevation of such biomarkers driving the inflammation level. No one can deny that the world is living in more overwhelming factors starting from the food, personal care products, mold, medications, trauma, oral bacteria, topical bacteria found on the skin all over the body, high sugar diet, processed, preserved, cleaning products, lead, mercury, iron, copper, saturated fats, hydrogenated fats, fuel fumes, glyphosate, and more suppressed immune system. In addition to genetics, what the person is predisposed to. So, Humans are a complex matrix. recording this matrix starts with understanding where you are. Understand your gut health, how far your gut microbiome is sound, are there biomarkers of inflammation within your body, the level of it, what drives your blood sugar dysregulation, blood pressure, and what vitamin, minerals, and nutrients your body is deficient in? Are there any endotoxins, exoticness, or the ecology of your gut bacteria that will tell a lot about the intestinal permeability leading all unwanted toxins to go through the bloodstream causing more chronic inflammation, and unhealthy you? 

         Health by design starts with understanding where the person is at, doing the right lab tests work, and understanding that removing all the toxins that cause the inflammation requires radical commitment from the person to seriously take their health as their first priority.  Finding the right specialties, and the support to work with you toward a healthy you. Inflammation is the main drive of more impulsive behaviors, shaping this barrier between the prefrontal cortex and the Amygdala. The Amygdala is all about the fight, flight, freeze, fawn, or faint. feeding your body with a more inflammatory diet is inviting more hyperactivity of the amygdala, less sleep, insomnia, anxiety, depression, and more negative changes within the human biochemistry. Eating more inflammatory food will increase more production of the lactase enzyme, less oxygen flows into the body cells, less body regulation, and organ function. Functioning from dysfunctional biochemistry will negatively impact how you perceive the world, and will increase your reactive mood. The complex matrix of the human body is a must to know microbiology education for all. Humans are not functioning from system organs primarily, they are functioning on a cellular level. And how healthy is your cellular tissue, will determine how you think, how you feel, and how you act, which will shape who you are, how you perceive the world around you, your productivity level and more will impact your mortality and the quality of your life. By: ME " The Old Ancient Woman"

The Inquisitive Soul

                With lots of curiosity, and wondering why? The big why? over the years, the question of free will is still persisting. Specifically for a woman who experienced the toughest mental battles, mastermind games, and the resettlement through life. The question is why her? and what are the hidden messages behind all these repetitive patterns? In times when mental-spiritual warfare is the right tool to be used to bring any woman down, the question about where God from all this? is and when humans will admit God's presence in others' lives still exists? Over decades the unquestionable injustice toward those who are seeking their freedom still repeating itself. Still, the community silence, and the cheer of celebrating somebody's pains repeat themselves. More questions start to rise, why? The freedom of choice is like committing more injustice to the collective all. while some are unquestionable about their choices, path, and whatever they do, still there are those who are persistently under the spotlight to surround them with the perfect storm, the confusion, and hurdles in the way. Still the accountability of social-emotional injustices do not exist in the formal way of justice. Still, human well-being only is a right for those who go with the norm. while choosing another path is like shaking the still water with all what may come. And still the question of what does it mean by free- will? Structure racism is the price that some have to pay, and struggle with without being able to address it publically, since freedom of speech is another red flag to be isolated, excluded, and being distant, and if you want to express your mind, you will be considered an outlier, outsider, and unable to understand why? why do things happen the way they are? Why pushing away thinking minds out of the rim of consciousness, and normal life? 

       Going through the journey of self discovery, may sounds to others so uncomfortable, starting to reframe your existence with so much hypothesis that add more to the social-emotional burden, and injustice to occur as the normal outcome of being on a different path than others. Since 2020, the world brought a very hard reality to receive, it reflected who is who? and the dark side of human nature of backing down the heaviness of who is in, and who is out? Life is a great gift from heaven, now humans assigned themselves to be owners of it. A great deviation from the truth to who we belong? Allowing myself to be open, direct ,and honest with myself more than others is my right to be. Competency brought the darkest side of humankind. You have to match the race, the color ,with gender, and zip code with the opportunities, and true process of progress, and outcomes. Being you ,and being what you want to do, that's hard to receive without lots of barriers and challenges in place. Your voice doesn't matter. I started to question what is the true purpose of doing something, and it has been rejected, and put aside? Coming to the point of burn- out, exhausted, and tired of repetitive patterns, and results in a life you don't understand why it is that way. Nothing to do but to keep on asking, exploring, and examining the inner conflict that leads to that state of no answer back. 

          Decisions are made behind the closed doors, no clarity, or understanding to the steps you want to take, and which pattern is going to reemerge causing the same results to occur. Coming back to the deep inner biases that shift the needles toward specific results. However, many things reflect themselves the way they are, and you find yourself choosing nothing but to move on, and walk away, no other way. Exhausting emotional burden that leads to sickness, and more isolation, and that is the hidden crime of new social justice. It is all in your head, that what echos back without any conformity to the true picture of what is going on. You can't investigate words, and manipulative actions in a world and do understand how to do it without a trace or evidence to be left behind. It is another tactic used to bring confidence, belief, and trust down. The voiceless, the broken, the damaged have bloomed to the surface of life, walking with a mind that there is no justice around. keeping asking the whys, and yet no answers are around......" By ME, "the ancient old woman."