Along the road of the unknown, another world to rediscover.
It is almost August, two-third of the year 2020 is saying goodbye. lives have been changed and how you perceive the world around you. 2020 is taking me into a deep route of the unknown. How it happened and why no specific answer. Iam up to discovering anew level of self-awareness. Who I want to be if none of these right now could ever happen? As a big believer in life and a life of fulfillment not only getting by, I see myself in place that I wouldn't imagine I would be able to function within. Trauma leaves you so vulnerable and you are not sure of what is true or not true? I find myself unpacking the complex layer that trauma put on me, or unconsciously I allowed that to happen, so noticing what actually had happened and what can you do then, is an eye-opening
Experiencing the freedom of being who you are without any apology, be you, that takes a lot of weight I was carrying through my day. Yes, hard experiences leave their markers on us, yet, you start to notice the inner soul in every individual around. It is priceless to witness beautiful hearts are still exist. See the beauty and goodness in each one you meet in the route of the unknown. When you tell me before in the journey of in-between that it is ok to be you, I would question everything you do, leaving me drained and untrusted. It isn't a good place to be in questioning everything around you, uncertain, afraid if you let it go, controlling anything so the hurt won't happen again and it happens. As you see the vicious loop of being stuck in the overwhelming zone of remembering the past, the pain and everything went wrong. This zone doesn't serve you if you believe in life.
Awakening to see that with every breath we take there is joy within, an unlimited joy to live and make it be seen. Despite the time of Covid-19 breaking through all the expectations, plans, dreams and a spirit is fighting to find her way in a true stable world which doesn't want to happen. when you see how steep the mountain you have to climb and no choice you have to keep going.
Moment after moment of holding on your breath, afraid of falling, and what will happen then. And it happens till you realize falling is part of the process till you learn the lesson that things happen and when they happen, what can you do then, that what counts. God doesn't promise us a life free from pain, suffering, or struggle, they do happen the main thing is how to persist and keep moving on. I discovered that yes nothing is guaranteed the only thing you can control is you, so how are you doing on a deeper level. Are you feeling comfortable within you or there is this unsilenced voice of what is going on? when you don't know or have no clue why this or it happens, the fact is, there is no answer and you are putting yourself automatically in the loop of hard feeling, that doesn't serve you to live your day with the fulfillment that you are here and that is enough. Even there is no answer for each why you have. By:ME
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