Don't be Me

searching for the truth may lead to a whole new different world.

When you do believe in the freedom of the inner soul, then you understand there are no limits for such a kind of freedom. As you are asking hard questions that sometimes or often have no answers and may lead or take you into the deep. This deep you may get lost in it for a long time as it has no dimensions. It is limitless. You find yourself clueless where you are and how the journey takes you that far that it is hard to go back. 

It feels good when your mind sparks to search for the truth and the inner meaning of our life. If it is not for a reason a purpose so why we are alive? Change is the main law of the land, no consistency, so disruptions to your process of searching turn to be permanent, connecting the pieces hasn't come to the full sense of meaning. Yet, everything you explore, you come to new truths and realities that change the angle of your scope of vision and the spectrum of discoveries widen itself to the limit of your understanding. I remember it was a journey of why first then changed to where and when and the questions still keep repeating themselves, no matter how far you reached still the pieces don't make sense. When we search for our lost soul, here the pain blinds us to see the way. So interesting in the state of pain the beast within us tries to gain control since the beast is aware so well that we have no control at this moment.   

Have you tried sometimes to stand still and listen to your pain and which state is trying to gain control within you? If you try to do this, you will become more conscious about the true you, which side is stronger within you, and how the course of life can change its way on this state. On the other side, try to notice yourself at the state of joy and rest, try to find where the beast at this time and what do you wish to tell them, will it be a good thing? How many times have you tried to tame the beast within you for the better good? And if you do so here your rest state will take control. How many of us can do this and try to enjoy the simple things around? Appreciating every moment in their day, as what has passed,won't come back, all you have is this moment so, how you will appreciate this moment. Even it is a moment of gain or a moment of pain. 

For me it doesn't matter anymore how the moment is or will be, I decided to attract what will bring more joy into this moment as that is the most precious treasure a person could have. There are too much pain already in this world. Nasty things do happen, that is the human nature, taming the beast within hasn't come into the awareness yet, and those who learned how to tame the beast will find joy in everything they touch, see, hear, smell or feel. A joyful heart, how cool is that! Imagine amongst the chaos, you will be able to find the rhythm within. My questions have no answers, you have to decide how the journey will go. Find the rhythm within. 

Sitting in the sunshine, closing your eyes, listening to the birds, watching little quarrels running across the way , expressing the sign of life. Hiking through mountains, feeling the magical breeze of air that has been given for free, and still, they change our whole perception about joy and what can bring joy into your moment. 

Listening to your favorite music, splashing your favorite colors within your existence of a joyful soul. Break all the barriers within. Your own world that you created within is yours no one can take it out of you. Your own little world has no conflicts over it or envy or jealousy, it is a world that not many are interested in. It is the child within that carving pure breaths and clarity within. 

Taking small steps for more exploration and discovery. It may feel like the wilderness and it is the wilderness of transformation, reconstructing the soul, bringing peace, and understanding what life is about. I have no clue what is the next step, it is my journey and I decided to be more aware of it. 

By: ME" The old ancient woman" 

In The Waiting

The -------- in-between

The waiting, the anticipation of what may happen next. Will it be aligned to your desires or completely different and what if cycle that will take you away of any possibilities or potentials you may have in front of you. In the waiting, trust is difficult. Certainty is something far beyond your reach. Will you trust the journey or you keep trying on your own and put your outcomes without reconsidering anything else. This may reflect the state of mind on the drive. In the waiting the mind on drive forgets about timing and al other risk factors may be involved within. It is the mind that gets exhausted from the derivatives of scenarios and outcomes. Unrelaxed mind, on the drive for results, what is next and sometimes no meaning for what is next but time-consuming.  to stand still is scary, to have peace is something foreigner to this state of mind. On the drive for challenges, conflicts, and draining the natural system mechanism, and here we find ourselves in a pattern that makes no sense. 

It is not a good thing to witness this state occurring and you can't completely control its path. It sounds out of control since the rest button lost its function by the time the tower collapse and the person finds themselves in a spot of nowhere. A new state of mind. A new condition and a new way of life, and it isn't comfortable. Feeling whole or being divided? You don't know which state you become then. It is confusing, need help and don't know what exactly to address. It is all-new for you. A new journey to begin and new lessons to carry with you and you may share some. Where can you start, when you once were whole or now as a divided one? 

You have a thought and want to speak out and here comes the trouble as it is so important who you are going to share with, over and over, you haven't learned the lesson, the way you choose to share your thoughts isn't right. Safety has to be the shield of protection to the person before sharing anything. Testing fails each time and here we come the cycle repeats itself and the images are broken into million pieces not twice. 

In the waiting for the good to happen, you may wait another life, As any fruit known by its seeds. The taste of the fruit depends on the soil, sour or sweet, you never know till you open the fruit and taste it then you can make a decision. But life is like a deep ocean with all its charming and horrifying truth, you have to experience them, then you can make a decision and know what is right. 

Let's say life is like a wide sea, full of miracles and wonders.  Or like a garden has its roses and thorns. Or like untold story and waiting for the ones who believed in the goodness of life to write the words, the lines, and have the choice to write the end. So, you have the choice to stay mysterious, closed like the fruit or take the risk and be open to receive the choice .it is a moment that does change lives, who is willing to take risks, you never know as life is like a deep ocean, each day it has a story to tell, a discovery that will astonish the world how come this happen? So, whatever you choose, take courage and responsibility to whatever will come. 

By: ME" the old Ancient woman"