A question ladies and gentlemen, how many of us allow their lives to be controlled with others opinions and views either about who they are or what they have to do? How many lives are wasted this way/ When my day is hanging on and waiting for the other voice for my life which way to go? How many ignore their own voice out of fear, shame or being abundant to stand alone? Look how many grow up dependent on the world to give them what they want, going from one thing into the other no regard how far they are hurting their own true lives, being on this edge all the time that this person has the key to the life I want.
We call it the survival mode, telling yourself I have no other way, I have to do this to live. Ignoring the inner breath of you and who it belongs to. If I want money I have to be around the rich, If I want love I have to surrender to any voice will say the common three robotic words," I love you", if I do not want to be alone, I have to be around people, the crowd the many the higher voices the on the go ones that have no time to sit and think; Is this my life is all about. Day by day we are running from facing this giant we build to be dependent and have no voice, shut up and do it.
As we grow, we wake up one day facing a stranger you no longer relate to, asking yourself what brought me to this place? The person I see now is not me? we are strangers sharing the same physical body, yet there is another voice is being louder and louder than the crowd you are around telling you I do exist, stop allowing the crowd choosing for me and ignoring who truly I am and how much you hurt me. The voice is first you think it is so stranger to you. Wherever you go, the voice follows. Gradually you find yourself questioning every place, every crowd you are around and gradually you do not enjoy these places or crowds and there is another window is opening to draw your attention to the true person within you. Everyone like the party, the happy hours the on the go live, yet, running from the silence, the thinking, the reasoning what this life is about. When life hit you hard with realities, where is the crowd, where is the party life has gone? When no other but you and the other stranger that following you the louder voice facing you. You may tell the voice, I do not want to listen or hear you, please find a different person and follow them. To your surprise, the voice will answer simply, I can't and to make it more clear, I am you. Trying to gather your strength and courage to say I do not know you. As no one around and no possibilities there would be. Here the time of stillness, no other choice to run to, you are set up to calm down and listen. The voice is watching you this time, as usual, super patient waiting for you to come to the status of surrender and quietness that will allow the voice to speak her true tune, with gentleness and kindness her surprise you.
To your surprise, you say Oh! I thought you are angry with me all the time, that is a different voice, I was running from your loudness, the louder you get, the more scared I am that I ran to the first crowd in the way reaping, repeating nothing but more hurt and I keep the blame to myself or getting angry of repeating the same mistakes. Shaming myself of where I am at. All I wanted is to surrender to any desire that I thought at this time will fill me and I'll be happy ever after. Every time the joy last for short time and I have to keep going to find the next one to fill me, pleasure, desires are the monsters that control and deceive the bodies that are not aware of their soul and spirit. Wait a minute did I say soul and spirit? This vision was not complete within me so this is me the product of the crowd, judged, condemned and abandoned so scare not be able to find my next pleasure or desire.
Why no one draws my attention to all of this? here the voice comes back to speak. As everyone in the crowd is just like you, each is looking to fill their pleasures and desires running from their inner voices ,so no one to blame, remember it is not anyone fault, it all comes back to the individual awareness of themselves, the true them as body, soul and spirit and the power within such creation that God has made for us to be in the way He meant for us to be . The source within is God, the compass that directs you is God, the leading spirit within you is God who made everything for your good. The crowd encourages you to be dishonest to yourself and others, manipulate, cheat, condemn, or even cheat, lie, deceive always pushing to the crooked ways that have no peace within. The more you follow the crowd, the more you deviate from the truth, the louder I become till the moment of the break comes and here you are, have no choice but to sit face to face, facing with all you courage the truth of who you are and want to bring you to life once again. So stand still and allow God to unite us and bring us to the oneness that we meant to be. Silence the crowd within you first, come to a stand that all comes from within. ready to listen to the guidance of God to lead your step and to believe again that He made all things work for your good, I mean all things.
Don't judge anyone or ignore the voice within to remind you when you go off. Wait for Him to allow His spirit to wash all your hurt and pain and watch Him making everything new, like there is pain in labor, bringing a new life may carry more pain. trust Him with all you heart, mind and soul and all your strenght that He will lead the way with His endless love and desire to remake you and bring you back on track to run your race gracefully ,wistnessing His Mighty power that never end, He is the ONE who is waiting for you to say Lord Iam ready Iam yours, and silence the crwod within.By: ME" The old ancient woman"
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