for sure our lessons come from our failures. They teach us things that we hardly can see with the naked eyes. It is the process that wraps you in experiences some you liked to start by yourself ,others you were exposed to. Who on earth haven not dreamed so much. You imagined yourself to be what you want to be and you decide to go for it. What does it take only the first step. With a naive perspective you go for it. Like a child who wants each to and not aware about how much is it? is it affordable? Do you know how to use it or even how it is made? How long it could last? does it suite you for each stage of your life? Is it a long live tool to be used and help you to function properly in life? None of these questions have been occurred to you. All you got is the child stubbornness to get what she wants. This is the child nature or this is how it comes to my mind when we, adults, try to do things without any considerations or planning.
We go with our feelings without any experience or asking questions before we step in. Yes, it happens when you work in life with your heart. Then you go through the cycle and you get your heart broken. Feeling sad that you allowed this to happen and how come as an adult you allowed your heart this means feelings and emotions blind you from seeking deep understanding whether it suits you to do it or not. Self blaming, punishing yourself , feeling down, doubting and questioning yourself over and over. And by time you will move to another experience and the lessons keep repeating themselves in different shapes and colors and yet, you didn't get it , not realizing the repetitive pattern as you allowed again your heart , feelings and emotions to control the situation and they can see this within you, using this to manipulate and do what they want do and no care for you or your existence in this life. Do not blame any one but yourself , move on
Waking the next day with broken heart, being apart and not feeling the surroundings the same as before. Trying to hold on, telling yourself try again one more time and here the waves are stronger than you and they knock you down with a cheer and loud voice, we got you again , come on baby one more round. Wrestling with powers can not get you anywhere but the ground.
It is not the game of co-existence, living or being who you are acknowledging the differences God made within us. It is not the routine to be followed to do the tasks. It is not the respect of your being within the universe. it is the world of complex identities where you do not know who you are dealing with. It is not a matter of life , live and let me live. it is the complex layer of revenge and power conflict. You are a threat to me and you have to be down. It is the conflict of surviving to get to the big dream of your life, sweeping any one in the way, using any thing can get you there. It is not the peaceful life you are seeking to be on earth. No my dear there are tens and tens of multi-layers agendas and your fault that you exist in the place and you belong to a certain race.
Do you get it or not yet, the imbalance of powers lead to a long live lived conflicts and battles. Sometimes you understand it , sometimes you do not as it is beyond your limits. Leading you to a serial of sufferings and weaknesses, screaming no this is not the life I want. Do you get it. Only in your head or you already see it, live it and no way out to be free.
We can be a live in the world, yet we are not free. Controlled by the world system. Controlled by power conflicts. Controlled by the stigmas that put onto us for we are different seeking the life that God meant for us to be, not being understood or even we can trust.
And here comes the lesson Iam trying to find in my life. There are three cornerstones to live and lead a strong life: Trust, Faithfulness and Honesty . In each one of them you can experience a multitude of heartbreaks till you find them if you could. As if you are looking for heaven on earth. These three are the glue for a healthy long life, no hidden agendas or conflict of powers. Live and let me live became a hard equation to be found in the world of complex identities controlled by the world system and distract us from our main purpose on earth to make a better life. To sow the seeds of goodness and witnessing His endless grace without complaining and betraying one another. Sorry I can not compromise , I have one life and I have to fight till I find it a life filled with meaning and purpose not fake interface or lies behind,By: Manal Eweis The Old ancient Woman
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