20220923_203749 Sarah Painting 1-2- 3
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What could be perceived from the moment you are experiencing can carry a timeline of events, places, people, and time. Moments that shaped faulty perceptions of reality bring awakening moments to understand and accept what you see, hear, and experience. The question is how sensations and perceptions take an endless space of shaping what life could mean from situations, places, and a cluster of repeated patterns allowing the deviation from the self and being forgotten in the cascade of events sometimes you question why sis they happen from the first place. The discomfort, the disease, the confusion with ambiguity what humans are up to with what they have given, sought after, and planned to do in life? The heaviness of the trembling steps in the unknown, the heavy perception of limitations, and abandonment from one generation to the other. Carrying this heavy load without allowing it to process, and resolve to allow more ambiguity to come your way. Humans become tied to the gravity of events, forgetting their own being, their existence, and their perceptions of how to be safe, connected, and alive. The cascade of accumulated unwanted emotions, feelings, thoughts, and actions. The accumulation of unanswered questions. The accumulation of why? And what had happened. The useless ruminations forgetting the moment of bliss and the time of being.
The more you grow older, you question everything, how it exists, and how it persists. Understanding the fine line between what exists, and what you pay attention to? Intergenerational trauma builds a pattern and is utilized as a navigator in each new situation and experience, even faces, places, and times are embedded within the subconscious mind activating events and the association brings the mind and body to a state of reliving the trauma, repeating the same behaviors. The question persists as the event is alive within, and is being triggered by places, persons, and time once all the parameters have taken place, and the action brings everything alive. And here comes the understanding of what triggers, and what can be key components to impact others negatively, using their trauma as a tool to gain power, authority, and even a fortune at the expense of the human being. Even the sciences indicated that everyone on earth experienced at least one traumatic event, for some their trauma is a key to gaining control over one another. There is a fine line between knowing that the person has been through trauma showing empathy moving on, and taking advantage of what already shared to use it against the person who shares at a moment of their vulnerable self. The moment of vulnerability is supposed to be a moment of awareness to tell you that the vulnerable is trusting you enough that they shared the weakest events that had happened one day which should be respected, and honor that trust. However, vulnerability in modern life is a weapon used against the vulnerable at the right moment to strike their safety, and confidence in the world. It is a breaking moment when it comes with awareness that those we most trust, are the first ones to strike us at the weakest moments in our lives. Therefore, it is not normal to talk, and chat, or no one will go back to this place again or reshare it. It is a moment of breaking the veil of reality where we stand and who we are surrounded with.
Many times it is too late to repair, restore, or recover, it is a detrimental moment that says aloud, "You owe yourself an apology, an apology of trusting in the wrong places, people, and time" It is a repeated traumatic event to bring you to the lowest point of giving up, the game of control, and ignoring the human life. You realize how heavy the load is, you understand that you added more load unto your weary soul, you understand that your roots, your existence never considered or will be when you once trusted yet betrayal is the answer, the heavy truth brings you to a state of rebirth and rethinking your share of the load that you participated in bringing unto your life, sharing now became a questionable matter and who you can share with has to be taken seriously. Not everyone has the best interest of your life, not everyone is there to be your cheerleader for your success, not everyone out there waiting for your good days, not everyone listens intending to reshare what you shared, not everyone accounts for your presence when they are making their own lives. Everything has a reason, a season, and a lesson to learn. Understand that your vulnerability is the lesson you have to learn to grow, to mature, and to understand what you pay attention to is going to impact you positively or negatively. Pay attention to the patterns that are running on autopilot for your vulnerability and trust, and understand their impact on your perception, and approach toward life in the stage you are in right now. Remember, your vulnerability was and is the lesson you had to learn.
When the closest hurt, or betrayed you, understand you played a part in it, you had a contribution, and the connection or the relationship was flawed, unhealthy, and was presented for a lesson to learn, yet when the pattern repeated itself, it brings us back to revisit our pain to see how much we grew out of it, or still, there is healing need to take place. Understanding my responsibility for the harm and betrayal allows another window to grow. When the same event repeats itself, know that it is the time to look at it in the face, say nothing, do nothing, and say" thank you, and move on." Your vulnerability shouldn't be used against you, however when it is used against you, thank GOD as it shows you where, who, and why it happens this way. Therefore, it is a moment of awakening, and you need to move on and carry on as you go you will be tested, and you will become the expert in identifying the voice, actions, and ambiguity of intergenerational trauma as humans to see humans, they see toxic faulty, uncontrolled, harmful history, and they choose not to grow out of it as it serves specific agendas, motives, and scenarios to get what they want "Control". When it comes to this realization understand that this is not the life you want. Therefore, keep moving on, intergenerational trauma requires everyone to wake up and understand this doesn't serve anyone anymore..... you don't have to pretend everything is ok anymore, be yourself, and keep moving on---- Peace!!!!! By: ME, "The old ancient woman"
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