Compliance- based- Fear

 

The point of being crushed 

Everything on this earth has an expiration date and time, and all are unique moments that force the change to happen. When you get a device it has all the data you want to know about its functionality and compatibility so you come to understand how it will serve its purpose in your life. Some are careless users, others are cautious users while others are curious want to explore the world with what they have. No matter which category you fall into still all of us are consumers. A long time ago the economy forced people to change their culture, communication,  behaviors, as well as relationships. How far as a consumer allow technology to change your beliefs, behaviors, perspective about the world around you. It turns out that many put their trust in what they use or consume, so the standard of measurement is about what you use and if this will allow the other judge differently. Items based mindset which ignore the whole person within, the human in front of you. Leaning on such judgment brings stress, tension, and pretense. So, authenticity is something far fetched.... taking away the true meaning of connection and relationship. Deviate minds toward paranoia and unrest. A great wall shielding the tectonic layers underneath.  

It is a difficult perspective to live around, allow the human body to build tension, unrest, ambiguity, and endless encounters of dis-ease. Since the outside world is in control of the person's life. So, we experience this state of wondering without voicing, the word "why" may cross your mind hundreds of times through the day, without a definite answer. Textbooks make things look fantastic, you love what you read and for sure the textbooks are built on facts and theoretical hypothesis, here it is completely different when you take the knowledge and decide to live by them. At this point, you are getting yourself into a huge challenge, a challenge that will consume each bit of knowledge you have and leave you depleted and drained. A naive decision brings nothing but trials. Since you are blind with a narrow mind of understanding, you don't have the complete picture. You don't have the self-environment awareness, the self- culture environment, the self- interaction, the self- diversity, the self-inclusion/exclusion, the self- social-economic, the self- gender/age/ ethnicity and the list goes on since human architecture is so complex. The vibrations of human energy change any dynamic you find yourself around since humans are moving within the complexity built through life. 

As consumers, we learned that I am not enough or complete. I am not enough, we have to identify ourselves either with things or who we are in relation to, who we are surrounded with all with the mindset to comply with the economic parameters that are mentioned above.  So, I"I" is hidden, being covered by the outside world till you no longer dare to identify yourself with "I" as the mindset, sat your mind that is selfish and not kind, so "I" is ruled by fear and I have to comply to be accepted, confirmed, false belonging, and do as everybody is doing, why you want to be different?  many dreams die, many wishes die, many steps may make the world a different place to live in are buried due to compliance-based- fear, suppressing yourself by yourself since the outside control is stronger, greater than the " I" no wonder that %92 of our dreams go with us into grave. The pool of stumbling, plotting, sabotaging, and other fearful endings for human life. Power at work, so who you are to be? 

The falsification of beliefs. So the human mind goes into the swirl of confusion, uncertainty once again fear, how can I be safe, how can I be me? How can I trust it? How can I live and let live? So this inner tornado is building within, waiting for the moment to blow everything around and this is a state of unhealthy mindset, imagine each individual around is walking by their tornados, clashing in a different level with those who around them, building tension, stress, toxic environment since fear is controlling them now, the fear of not being able, accepting, achieving, climbing the ladder, have this and this, like so and so. The cultural norm in play and the "I" is sinking, invisible. Living by out of our standards. The tension surface is building a tearing community, in order to breakthrough I have to crush somebody. You witness generational hatred, abuse, betrayal, cheating, lying, snatching others' rights, or even denying others rights in compliance with the cultural norm to a false state of belonging. Till we deny ourselves, create a state of injustice to ourselves by compliance. A human is born with a pure mind-body-soul till they become part of the generational culture norm,  here, we have to make a choice at a point of on purpose denying the "I" while generationally this false belief is being passed from generation to the other it built up the biases that a person hard to live without. Hard things keep happening, crushing the humans just as the crushing device, no use to it, and hard to function properly or help the person to manage their day. At this unhealthy dynamic of life, when we see a crushed device we feel sad, while when we see a crushed person we laugh. And that is the point when you realize how far the outside world control humans than themselves. It is a tough life. By: ME" The old ancient woman" 

Women Modernized Cages

 

Culturally we tend to look at how women are practicing their freedoms around the world in a religiously political way to serve the continuation of paradox within a community, society, or a group. Many use it as a sort of collecting intelligence to approach someone, control or use. Historically if you want to break a nation, target women, if you want to change the culture, target women, if you want to build a nation target women since they are the caregivers of all children, males, and the elderly. So, never underestimate the role of women in any spot in this world we live in. Using the information or knowledge you succeeded to collect direct and indirect can be a double-edged sword. Don't expect that everyone is approaching you is for your good. There is a hidden paradigm behind the scene and few can identify that they are already in this paradigm either they are willing to or not. It is a very complex paradigm and controlled by laws. 

If we think that there is absolute freedom for women, we have to rethink, for sorry, that is not true. In modern complex socioeconomic structure, women fall into hundred of categories, so socioeconomically women are sliced, no matter your wished or dreams, they are controlled by the game rules or the inner agreement within closed or classified groups, so your wishes and dreams collide with what is already established in place. When you consider a certain culture is more for freedom than the other, you have to ask yourself what kind of freedom are you seeking, physical, social, economical, political, religious, or mental freedom. What do you mean by freedom from the first place as what is earlier was established by the founding fathers, no more fit the modern paradigm when you realize that all your earlier understanding is already compromised.

Since the times of cold war, Man understood fully the power of the mind, hence the reshaping of minds became a must, and if you couldn't reshape the mind, control it, and if you couldn't control it, wipe it out by all sorts of tools can be used, foods, social structure, economic structure, religious or political even environmental, which takes life to a wider uncontrolled sphere of complex dimensions that go beyond the man capacities to face or solve. 

No doubt that this complexity leads to more complex issues to deal with on personal and group level, they affect how humans relate to one another, communicate, live around one another. Again you have to bear in mind that not everyone you come to communicate with you desires the good for you, that is rare nowadays, words became a sharp tool to manipulate man's mind. I mean mostly here women, especially those who are vulnerable and don't belong to specific groups, mostly free thinkers, global thinkers, or thought leaders so they are perceived differently from the community or communities they happen to be found in. They are excluded, outsiders, outlined, and being controlled by stories around them. So history is falsifying the paradigm. 

While man is free to choose, decide, act, believe, do, relate to the world they are in, women are judged, condemned, overlooked, trapped in their past, imprisoned mentally, stressed, even by fellow women who has to agree with the group laws or they will be excluded as well and that is so expensive. I am not against men. I am calling for sense of equality and justice for honoring human life no matter what, keeping the integrity of this sacred breath that is gifted to everyone on earth. I am calling for a collective honorary way of life of respect and dignity. Which has to be obtained through a high price a woman can pay. It is devaluing of the human being to carry burdens they don't want to carry them. It is a choice it is the freedom to decide what kind of life you desire for yourself, not what the common wants from you or others' expectations from you. It is our call to action to get out of the modernized cages designed by anti mind individuals. Your story is your story whether you want to keep it or change it. This is taking personal responsibility for your life, when we ignore the essence of the human value here you have to question "Are you in the right community, society, or group of humans or not?" if not you have to decide who you are and how to build that honoring God in each step you take, know your whys and hows, what brings joy to you in the midst of struggle or pain and have peace, God is walking with you and He sees you for who you are. BY: ME"The old ancient woman" 

Searching For Words........

 

Smiling in the middle of the pain 

When I reconsider the past, the only thing that remained to wonder about is my smile that doesn't go away despite all the mountains I had and still have to climb. When you search for a meaning for it, it is God's grace within me. I didn't create it, he blessed me with. So I am so grateful for that. Maybe that's why no one pays attention to my scars or the journey behind. I look normal, I live normal and keep on climbing more mountains. What struck me is that even we live in the peak of technology, Media, industry, still human behavior is a cycle that keeps repeating itself, and unfortunately, we are taken in the loop of enormous distractions. We put too much effort into polishing the outside environment and ignoring polishing, cleansing the human soul which is the start point of any healthy habit here on earth. We got too busy and dazzled by the tangible and diminishing the intangible. So the measurement standards are based on what is seen by the naked eye. Since no one put an effort to pay attention to the inner meaning of their existence. 

Yes, we have to work hard to be able to take responsibility for what is due as our share living citizens, pay your bills, provide for yourself or your family, build a decent life if you can, taking care of emergencies that may come your way, no one is excluded from that. It is a serious and responsible life. So you have to take care of yourself so you can take care of others. While the majority of their life is supposed to be this way, they are busy taking care of their daily duties, some even forget about sitting down and taking a deep breath to feel their existence. The modern life wheels, leave no option other than work hard for your day.  The demand is already put. While you are busy doing what is called life, there are weeds growing around you, forgive me, I am trying to search for other words, and here the word weeds keep showing up. I am sure there is a reason for this. 

An envy eye, jealousy eye, insecure eye, malicious eye, believe it or not, everything starts with the eye, when the heart is occupied by bitterness and sadness of what is going wrong or why them not me? Or I can't do this so I will not let you do it by any means I will ruin what you are trying to do, the vicious cycle of humans since Adam and Eve, Abel and Cain, the seed of jealousy, envy that is deeply rooted in human nature since then. We find ourselves going through tough battles, that lead us to bear more burdens through the day other than what we have to pay attention to, to build a decent life. These weeds can take its form of group ethnicity, race, religious, or socioeconomic status. The battle is all about how to stumble those who don't comply or fit my agenda, human life has no value or price in this vicious cycle, as the loop of envy and jealousy is keeping rolling around the world with different voices and faces. The main message remains the same, the enemy comes to kill, steal, and destroy. You can't witness fruitful seeds from this message. It is painful and due to lots of distractions around, the weeds find their way into our day and try to break us down. 

It is not Jesus, God, or the goodwill of the human soul, it is the rotten roots that were inherited to humans since Adam and Eve. The weeds serve their purpose either to break us down or strengthen us. It depends on your faith foundation, like satan temptations, it doesn't stop and don't go weary, it has full power horse running on fueling bad actions around. It is what it is. Don't believe there is love there, straightforward, honesty, transparency, good wishes, or joy. non of this does exist with the weeds, you have to face your battles. You have to trust in the ONE who made you, You have to believe that no evil will prevail at the end. We find ourselves instead of keeping the hard work to have a decent life being faced with the weeds who are filled with envy and jealousy to demolish any effort you are making to have a life with honor and dignity. Yes, it is depleting, exhausting, and no good, as it results in the so many sicknesses the human race is suffering from. Carrying the emotional burden with you wherever you go, living on the tip of anxiousness, agitation, irritation, anger, disappointment, frustration, sadness, the sense of lack not enough, something wrong has to happen, living a life of ill- anticipation, all start with the eye, how you perceive life around you and how many weeds you are surrounded with. Tangled forest of weeds or a plain valley?

God didn't create anything bad. it is our sinful nature that constantly fights to exist and persist. if we can measure how much emotional and potential efforts the weeds are putting toward fulfilling their plans, this energy or power may build a whole different world, if they are used in a good way. The weeds can not see the beauty around, their fuel is on the dirt of the soul, unclean soul, that is how they get their fuel and the energy to continue to break down beautiful souls around, it happened that you may be in their way at this time, you become a target, the battle is not you, the battle is the beauty within you, the good within you, the hope you bring, the healing you bring and the hearts you touch all of this gives unrest, discomfort to the weeds who desire to gain control over everything around, never been satisfied, the hunger for a more and more, non-stop vicious cycle. No satisfaction or contentment, whoever they can destroy, that brings existence to their life. When I see this picture is repeating itself around, I look back to the first sin of man and say wow, we never learn the lesson, greed blinded the human soul, the mindset of lack and never been enough rule the world. Depleted drained souls yarning to a time of peace and tranquility within. Carrying this emotional baggage whether you want it or not. Making us question life, will this come to an end one day. Nothing to be said but searching for words of peace and healing to each hurting soul. Mending souls has to start with the person him/herself. As much as the pain and hurt do exist, it will ignite your soul to desire healing to see beauty instead. Beauty using the same eye that sparks the ill habit of envy and jealousy, instead tell the eye to yarn for healing too, cleansing and being grateful for whatever you have, wherever you are, and enjoy the journey of pain and suffering, telling yourself this too shall pass. Giving it all back to the cross and the price it is paid for. The weeds love to keep the blood-shedding, while God's grace shouting out for life, you have to ask yourself what do you stand for life or weeds? I see humans hard to learn from history and past mistakes since healing didn't take place yet. Seek your soul healing, desire it more than life itself, cry out to it, and ask God to lead you to a life of beauty and grace, here you will find joy. By: ME" The old ancient woman"