for sure our lessons come from our failures. They teach us things that we hardly can see with the naked eyes. It is the process that wraps you in experiences some you liked to start by yourself ,others you were exposed to. Who on earth haven not dreamed so much. You imagined yourself to be what you want to be and you decide to go for it. What does it take only the first step. With a naive perspective you go for it. Like a child who wants each to and not aware about how much is it? is it affordable? Do you know how to use it or even how it is made? How long it could last? does it suite you for each stage of your life? Is it a long live tool to be used and help you to function properly in life? None of these questions have been occurred to you. All you got is the child stubbornness to get what she wants. This is the child nature or this is how it comes to my mind when we, adults, try to do things without any considerations or planning.
We go with our feelings without any experience or asking questions before we step in. Yes, it happens when you work in life with your heart. Then you go through the cycle and you get your heart broken. Feeling sad that you allowed this to happen and how come as an adult you allowed your heart this means feelings and emotions blind you from seeking deep understanding whether it suits you to do it or not. Self blaming, punishing yourself , feeling down, doubting and questioning yourself over and over. And by time you will move to another experience and the lessons keep repeating themselves in different shapes and colors and yet, you didn't get it , not realizing the repetitive pattern as you allowed again your heart , feelings and emotions to control the situation and they can see this within you, using this to manipulate and do what they want do and no care for you or your existence in this life. Do not blame any one but yourself , move on
Waking the next day with broken heart, being apart and not feeling the surroundings the same as before. Trying to hold on, telling yourself try again one more time and here the waves are stronger than you and they knock you down with a cheer and loud voice, we got you again , come on baby one more round. Wrestling with powers can not get you anywhere but the ground.
It is not the game of co-existence, living or being who you are acknowledging the differences God made within us. It is not the routine to be followed to do the tasks. It is not the respect of your being within the universe. it is the world of complex identities where you do not know who you are dealing with. It is not a matter of life , live and let me live. it is the complex layer of revenge and power conflict. You are a threat to me and you have to be down. It is the conflict of surviving to get to the big dream of your life, sweeping any one in the way, using any thing can get you there. It is not the peaceful life you are seeking to be on earth. No my dear there are tens and tens of multi-layers agendas and your fault that you exist in the place and you belong to a certain race.
Do you get it or not yet, the imbalance of powers lead to a long live lived conflicts and battles. Sometimes you understand it , sometimes you do not as it is beyond your limits. Leading you to a serial of sufferings and weaknesses, screaming no this is not the life I want. Do you get it. Only in your head or you already see it, live it and no way out to be free.
We can be a live in the world, yet we are not free. Controlled by the world system. Controlled by power conflicts. Controlled by the stigmas that put onto us for we are different seeking the life that God meant for us to be, not being understood or even we can trust.
And here comes the lesson Iam trying to find in my life. There are three cornerstones to live and lead a strong life: Trust, Faithfulness and Honesty . In each one of them you can experience a multitude of heartbreaks till you find them if you could. As if you are looking for heaven on earth. These three are the glue for a healthy long life, no hidden agendas or conflict of powers. Live and let me live became a hard equation to be found in the world of complex identities controlled by the world system and distract us from our main purpose on earth to make a better life. To sow the seeds of goodness and witnessing His endless grace without complaining and betraying one another. Sorry I can not compromise , I have one life and I have to fight till I find it a life filled with meaning and purpose not fake interface or lies behind,By: Manal Eweis The Old ancient Woman
Monday, May 29, 2017
Saturday, May 27, 2017
If Life throws you a lemon.....................
Yup, that is the first thing that came to my mind. Asking yourself what is going on. Being hit by lemons that make your vision dazzle and letting you wondering. Oh! My God what is going on? Can words be trapped in our lips hardly to express? Can vision be turned upside down, waking you up from daydreaming and rosy world? Can your mind be shifted to make you question over and over what is going on? Yes, who can avoid such times that allow fractions to process different results.
Asking myself if getting deeper is not a request within the modern world? If I feel something and can not express it so why the question from the first place? Adjusting path ways will look like rags within a fine fabric to make it different while it doesn't make sense.
Squaring your thoughts may result in doubling them. Going up and down trying to solve the infinite equation with no directions or right instructions or even understanding of what is next. All you do asking what is going on? Going in circles, going back to the same old patterns has no value to add or helping you to move on. The old is coming again and again and here you forget what has been proven that didn't or won't work.
This time is different more understanding allows you to see the world and the life around you in a different lens. Waking up from the comma of unworthiness, shame and neglect. Wake up it is almost Four and half decades on earth and what you did has no worth. Wake up come back to the earth and let it go of the old. Our days are numbered and nothing can change that. Allowing shadows to control your thoughts, day and night does not make sense.
Tune up with the universe, the beauty that is created and no one can take this out or make it something else. Through pains and sorrows here His light shines in, carrying you to bring you back to your sanity and helping you to cross another bridge. Life has no meaning if we compromise our existence for meaningless drama or fears to shackle our steps. The world is so big it never meant to trap one another for drops of dust or gold. Walk away, carry your load and embrace the cross. The world is so wide to lose our precious life for hate or revenge. Walk away and seek Him The ONE who made the whole universe for you to explore to navigate through the beauty within.
Who sees the world with the lens of conflict and hate will never change, making life like a massacre the blood will never end. There is no peace in there. There is no light, There is nothing that we can count on as it is a slow death for innocent souls on the earth.
Climbing your mountain of faith is not an easy process. Seeking to fly on eagle wings, bringing peace into the universe. Sadness comes natural when we are down and can't fight anymore. The body is declaring its tiredness of meaningless hate and revenge. No more tears to be shed all you see is His grace and the deep breath He created within you for a reason and nothing else make sense.
Times of questioning the pain you live is nothing but another miracle He is preparing you for so always remind yourself " If life throws you a lemon, make the best sweetest delicious lemonade." Express His presence within you and stand for the life He is breathing in within you for a reason and the answer you will experience will truly make sense. Wake up for a new day looking for hope and never turn your face away from Him.By: Manal Eweis
Asking myself if getting deeper is not a request within the modern world? If I feel something and can not express it so why the question from the first place? Adjusting path ways will look like rags within a fine fabric to make it different while it doesn't make sense.
Squaring your thoughts may result in doubling them. Going up and down trying to solve the infinite equation with no directions or right instructions or even understanding of what is next. All you do asking what is going on? Going in circles, going back to the same old patterns has no value to add or helping you to move on. The old is coming again and again and here you forget what has been proven that didn't or won't work.
This time is different more understanding allows you to see the world and the life around you in a different lens. Waking up from the comma of unworthiness, shame and neglect. Wake up it is almost Four and half decades on earth and what you did has no worth. Wake up come back to the earth and let it go of the old. Our days are numbered and nothing can change that. Allowing shadows to control your thoughts, day and night does not make sense.
Tune up with the universe, the beauty that is created and no one can take this out or make it something else. Through pains and sorrows here His light shines in, carrying you to bring you back to your sanity and helping you to cross another bridge. Life has no meaning if we compromise our existence for meaningless drama or fears to shackle our steps. The world is so big it never meant to trap one another for drops of dust or gold. Walk away, carry your load and embrace the cross. The world is so wide to lose our precious life for hate or revenge. Walk away and seek Him The ONE who made the whole universe for you to explore to navigate through the beauty within.
Who sees the world with the lens of conflict and hate will never change, making life like a massacre the blood will never end. There is no peace in there. There is no light, There is nothing that we can count on as it is a slow death for innocent souls on the earth.
Climbing your mountain of faith is not an easy process. Seeking to fly on eagle wings, bringing peace into the universe. Sadness comes natural when we are down and can't fight anymore. The body is declaring its tiredness of meaningless hate and revenge. No more tears to be shed all you see is His grace and the deep breath He created within you for a reason and nothing else make sense.
Times of questioning the pain you live is nothing but another miracle He is preparing you for so always remind yourself " If life throws you a lemon, make the best sweetest delicious lemonade." Express His presence within you and stand for the life He is breathing in within you for a reason and the answer you will experience will truly make sense. Wake up for a new day looking for hope and never turn your face away from Him.By: Manal Eweis
Tuesday, May 2, 2017
Emptiness
What can comes to your mind when I mention the word emptiness? It may mean to you so many things, no storage, no fulfillment of something you desire or like or working on yet this irritating wandering sense of life is surrounding you wherever you go? Is it due to lack of something or having everything anyone else can wish for and you don't desire any more?
Emptiness this word that fills each one package despite whatever they have? is it due to the lack of meaning or value of anything we have? whatever you get in this life, is no enough there is always this lack that urge you to do, nothing but doing, floating in the bubble of emptiness.
Emptiness led us to the dryness of true love and true value. Emptiness led us to a very rough tough feelings toward the life around us . I do not see growth in such arena if Emptiness overcome your life, it will take you to the senseless motion of routines that what we call survival. You do what you do only to keep yourself alive.
Can you imagine with me what world emptiness would like to take you to? Iam sure it is not the route you would like to walk through. Yet, each one of us has time to walk through emptiness when you do things that may allow you to question what is the purpose of this or that? Does it add value to my day, or even the minute Iam present in the world right now? Was it for the common good or it was about my hunger for more this desire of fulfillment and the need of more and more yet i didn't sense any of it?
This chapter of emptiness may consume good time of our precious life that is why it is important to identify the red flags that lead to such emptiness to consume our time on earth. Once you identify them , then bring them to awareness, don't try to suppress them as they will allow this chapter to dig deep to the roots and change everything upside down that is you the main asset in this life, you will be controlled by it and it will tell you what to do each second of your life ,so you will become a sweeper of illusion not a true human life.
Can you see how far emptiness can drag you to, to see the unwanted to wanted , the not needed to a must and when something become a must it blinds us to see the true value of life around us, nothing but negativity , jealousy, covetousness and all what is against the fruit of spirit and this is not a welcomed soil i want it to myself or anyone on earth.
May the LORD fill your emptiness,
May The LORD fill your days with grace,
May the LORD guide your steps and lead your heart,
I can not do it on my own, He is there to help
That is why Iam proud to call Him my God , by: Manal Eweis " The Old Ancient Woman"
Emptiness this word that fills each one package despite whatever they have? is it due to the lack of meaning or value of anything we have? whatever you get in this life, is no enough there is always this lack that urge you to do, nothing but doing, floating in the bubble of emptiness.
Emptiness led us to the dryness of true love and true value. Emptiness led us to a very rough tough feelings toward the life around us . I do not see growth in such arena if Emptiness overcome your life, it will take you to the senseless motion of routines that what we call survival. You do what you do only to keep yourself alive.
Can you imagine with me what world emptiness would like to take you to? Iam sure it is not the route you would like to walk through. Yet, each one of us has time to walk through emptiness when you do things that may allow you to question what is the purpose of this or that? Does it add value to my day, or even the minute Iam present in the world right now? Was it for the common good or it was about my hunger for more this desire of fulfillment and the need of more and more yet i didn't sense any of it?
This chapter of emptiness may consume good time of our precious life that is why it is important to identify the red flags that lead to such emptiness to consume our time on earth. Once you identify them , then bring them to awareness, don't try to suppress them as they will allow this chapter to dig deep to the roots and change everything upside down that is you the main asset in this life, you will be controlled by it and it will tell you what to do each second of your life ,so you will become a sweeper of illusion not a true human life.
Can you see how far emptiness can drag you to, to see the unwanted to wanted , the not needed to a must and when something become a must it blinds us to see the true value of life around us, nothing but negativity , jealousy, covetousness and all what is against the fruit of spirit and this is not a welcomed soil i want it to myself or anyone on earth.
May the LORD fill your emptiness,
May The LORD fill your days with grace,
May the LORD guide your steps and lead your heart,
I can not do it on my own, He is there to help
That is why Iam proud to call Him my God , by: Manal Eweis " The Old Ancient Woman"
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