Have you ever started to thank a virus or disease for hacking into your life and you were not ready for it, and at a sudden instead of hating yourself for being sick and helpless and unable to help yourself anymore, falling into one hundred piece and all circling in your mind was humpty dumpty great fall. And you found yourself in a whole different experience that transforms you within and started to carry the journey into a whole different zone? That what happened when I got the flue virus last February , and when you are sick you have to keep away as much as possible from anyone so they won't get sick too. Being hacked with the flue virus hit my body and immune system so hard and since I am a natural remedies and healing approach person, I tried to treat myself and this time the virus was stronger than me so no way than to listen to the doctor and stay home for 10 days, what you said 10 days? That is like death for me , Iam a kind of person who is addicted of doing at the same time fearful of taking true serious steps towards my life and that is the contrast I live for ears now. The life of fear that I don't fit anywhere so i have to keep myself busy doing anything that makes me pass the time that I live on earth.
For sure this is not a good spot of life any proactive person would like to go through, yet\, I do. So as always my guardian angel is looking after me, I got all the support I needed at this time, my bills are paid, my fridge is filled with food and another unique gift, Painting Kit , my first time to think that your sickness can turn into something expresses what is inside of you and pass the fever times in such peaceful way painting, drawing and writing. Since writing is my first passion. what can I do my life is so complex, like a fairy tale, chapter after chapter is getting so wild , unpredictable or make any sense for me , contradictions, hills, valleys and mountains, less being understood and alot needs to be understood and I have to keep going, this time i wanted this page to reveal my journey since Feb 2016 and how having the flue virus led me to another step of healing and understanding and thanks to my friend who provided me with now two painting kits and a creative journal to keep my thoughts within visually, when you have real tools, here you wonder how can it be? and where will lead you to?
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