Realities VS. Compassion Disconnections

 

        Unfortunately, I have to face my realities where I realize that how you believe, and how you think may oppose how life goes around you. 2021 is adding more hard lessons to learn. a dream for a united world, a world where fairness and justice may prevail. A place where the person is being their true self and have the freedom to be themselves. They are able to speak and have a voice, a place where the person can contribute their ideas, minds, and collaborate with others. I dreamed of a world of ideas where I have clashed with a world of other concepts. Foreign concepts I didn't know about, however, through the years I began to experience and know these foreign concepts day after day including implicit biases, racism, prejudice, hate crime, cybercrime, stalking, gossip, racial discrimination, Psychic games, illegal hacking, virtual bullying, inner circle, exclusion, dramatic events, plotted conflicts, tactical manipulation, and the list goes on. I wonder is it the end of the times when the traumatization of humanity is the key to having control, power, and authority over those who are weak, helpless, ignorant, and have no clue what all this is about. It comes to me like a pool of deep dark energies that see nothing but themselves and how to control. Peace is missing. Harm is the key to reign. I wonder how can humans have a healthy life or mind to do good. I mean true good in the world not fake ones. Fear is the common dominator in actions. Confusion is the player through the day. I started to wonder where God was from all these Psychological turmoils that lead to diseases and sickness along the road. Fake Media, fake names, fake sites, what else is fake? One day I thought technology is made for the good of humanities, however, year after year it turns to be the new plague to rob humans out of their humanity, and no justice as the game is out of control and millions are falling victims in this trap. The world is busy fighting the pandemic, so no time no efforts are available to combat what is happening behind the screens. You start to ask where is the safety? where humans can feel that life is real and not a scheme. Hate turns people into hackers, trackers, and stalkers. What a reality do humans have to deal with and they have no clue how this could happen?  

          Contradictions among the words and the actions, decision making, and plans, nothing is real, all fake, so what you can do? The new phase after covid-19 enables others to take advantage of the weak, the poor, the helpless, keeping them in drastic traumatized environments where growth is not an option. Compassion is only letters, goodwill is a daydream as it will get you into troubles, deep troubles, mind your business and stay in your lane. A fountain of hate lashes will fill your day, if you try to stay out of your lane, dream, take action, or have a wish to be. The heaviness of the load is hard to take. However, this is the new age we are up to. The times are getting tougher, having a simple day is another daydream. Free will, and freedom of speech are far-fetched expressions. No guarantees for anything, even what you see, the loss of hope, and the coming of dep grief, what the reality means for you, is completely different to others, words are no more to be the measurement of complete truth. So stick to what you believe in, nothing is worthy to fight for, do your day, and move on. Hate never built something good, never built lives, never made healthy humans.  By: ME " The old ancient woman" 

Precious Moments to Hold On.....

 

            Being trapped in the bubbles the person formed around them, social bubble, media bubble, career, bubble, and the list goes on take the person through endless constraints. They become tied to the frame of these bubbles and how they should be. The expectations of how they could be and why they want them this way. When the bubble over occupied the person's life, they lose their peace to the race they found themselves in within this bubble, the demeanor of the person reflects their inner attitude and aptitude. The tighter, tougher, and competitive the bubble, the more the demeanor of the person reflects itself in the world, very aggressive, stressful, as a tug a war game. The fraction between the opposites results in social-emotional scars and these scars and wounds lead to the rapture of more values to stand upon. So, interesting to experience such rapture that breaks the bond between the human and their true self, as the person first lost is happening within. They are not losing the outside, in fact, they are losing within. How whole they were, comes to a question. Losing the inner soul leads to more self-doubting and questioning the essence of everything. The view of the world becomes a reflection of the degree of the rapture within. The actions come from a place of judgment and labeling everything they face, the world becomes a picture of black and white. Extremes in judgment and action. The person becomes the prisoner of their thoughts, the battle becomes silent from within, no one can hear, however, the actions reveal lots of contradictions in between. The steps become more imbalanced, the feelings become more mixed and confused, the isolation becomes the comfort zone. As the person experiences the discomfort of the rapture within. The history replays itself like a non-stop show, reminding the person of the betrayal, deceit, and lies coated with closeness and pretend. How deep to feel the betrayal and allow yourself the feeling that accompanies it. Oh! God of mercy, only Him knows how it feels and how it changes the person's trajectory of life. However, are those who betray, aware of the impact and damage that has been done? The answer is so simple, they don't know as they acted upon unhealed early wounds, these wounds left hidden under the rug till they manifest themselves in the person's demeanor. However, they don't know or they refuse to face what lies deep in the cave of the mind, and feelings and are left unaddressed. Betrayal of trust and care is the hardest human crime that raptures many bonds, relationships, connections, and truths. As it comes from those we allow into our space, they didn't value this invitation and understood its core value of grace. 

         Oh! God of mercy, only Him can carry the person in His grace. In the darkest moments, and in the midst of the loss and the pain, only Him can bear all the outrage anger that overflow and overwhelm any human being, allowing the person to go through the darkest point of the valley of the shadow of death and know that YOU are there. The rapture forms a thick wall in the person's heart, walking with the grief and loss silently as it is hard to bear in the human world, there is a wall of protection and determination this won't happen again. Even getting up every morning may trigger a piece of the rapture, yet, the person chooses to walk by faith, rejecting all the patterns that remind them of what happened before. The patterns are already imprinted in the brain, it is hard to be erased, however, they choose to be themselves and not someone else, they decided to bear the pain and understand this is their stone to walk away, to be in alignment with their soul and not being wounded by choosing to remain betrayed and lied to, silence sometimes can be the comfort zone that doesn't stir the volcano of anger and sadness within. Yes, the journey is heavy, filled with questions, and refusing to repeat the past and be a slave of human darkness of betrayal and deceit. Each day is a new promise to move on, a step to stand in the glory of God with gratitude, even the journey carries many trials and hardships, only by the grace of God, the person can proceed in life with hope and healing, holding on the simple momenta that are brought through the day, only by the grace of God the person walk through the day, only by the grace of God, the person can enter the endless blessings of His mercy upon their soul. Listening to the whispers of the fresh air, witnessing God's creation in the endless beauty He created, the sound of the trees, birds, and the flow of endless whispers saying" Fear Not, I am with you." These simple precious moments carry the person through. Walking with God, knowing that He can listen, understand what you have gone through. By: ME." The Old Ancient Woman."