" Lead me in your truth and teach me, for you are the God of my salvation; for you, I wait all the day long." Psalm 25: 5
With a deep sigh of wonder, with a look at the skies, with the smell of the wind, and feeling its strength, I surrender to the endless teachings from above. I don't own anything of myself, each cell belongs to The One who made me, maybe with this deep realization that I don't doubt a bit, I breathe the goodness of God within my day. I noticed that the more chaos put my way, I seek Him more to guide me and teach me and give it back to Him, and He does, He is the light to my dark days, He is the water in my dry days, He is the source of my strength. If you ask me why with all that is happening to you and you still exist, the answer is so simple God is the one who does exist, we are an extension to His presence on earth. His word is the lamp to my day, I wonder what if I couldn't find my way to His word? At the time when I can't speak, His words spoke to me, showed me hope and life, a life that goes beyond our limited understanding. The world takes pride in their possessions, I take pride in belonging to Him. I don't have the glamour life that some can possess, yet, with a faithful heart filled with abundance to His love to me, I have the world, He made me the way I am where I find my joy peace, and salvation in Him. One day I knelt and wept at the altar, and He knows how to reach me. He knows me so well that I am with all my heart mind and soul, know that He has me in His hands.
For years and years, I am seeking understanding, to know the whys, and that took me to many routes and valleys. Our thoughts shape our realities. And when your thoughts are focused on Him, He will guide you to the right path. I had enough of the world manipulation, abuse, and misuse. I trust in the One who knows the truth because He is the truth. Anything else is relative, nothing lasts, He lasts, He is yesterday, today, and tomorrow. Iam being judge upon what is seen, while He sees the unseen, He sees it all, that is why I have no doubt that He got this. He is my advocate, I have an open dialogue with Him, anytime, any step, any season of my life. His door won't shut up on your face, or disregard you because of how you think, talk, wear or behave, He knows it all. He told me, my child I know you, I understand you, I made you and I won't let you down. My child I got this, walk with me with pride that I am your Abba Father, The ONE that you can lean on, trust, and will bear all your burdens, cares, worries, misbehavior, detours, illness, stuckness, I will guide you with my right hand.
No doubt that when I am so confident of His love to me, I have to freedom to express my mind, I find myself saying, God why I keep seeing the same pattern? Why I am perceived as voiceless, powerless, helpless? I take the steps that Iam called to. I don't understand how? I want to decode the mysterious timeline of my journey. Your word is the lamp that lit my way to be the one Iam right now. Seeing through the heart, seeing through the breath, seeing through the eyes, seeing through the tone of voice, seeing through the unexplained detours. It is a journey of wondering through the lens of making sense. I stand in awe when I sense your presence with me. I don't believe in soft-looking and voices, since they did the harm already. When You see your failures please them, the more you are down, the happier they are, it is a losing battle. Humans do hurt each other because they are hurting. Standing human to human is a blessing from above. When God sends His angels to guide you when all your wings disappear when you question what is going on, and why things happen this way, God sees your battle, and He is with you not against you. Wait on Him for He hears, He sees, and understand you more than you know. Be at peace that not everyone comes into your life, has the best interest for you.
" And you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free." John 8: 32
By: ME " The old Ancient Woman"
