Wednesday, August 29, 2018
Wednesday, August 8, 2018
Bottom Line
Walking with a package that is collected through the years, is not the right choice a person can make to have a true meaningful life. It is not a nice feeling, a person would love to experience each single day. It tears you down internally that day by day ,it takes you away from being in touch with reality. Your mind is in cycle, trying to repeat the same same old patterns and that brings you down into tears. Your life has been robbed away and you are walking like a shadow on the earth, can not be touched, can not be seen.
And here there are moments that hit you so hard. Trying to walk you up , letting you to pay attention to how awful your life is turned out. You are in shock ,you are in denial. Your ego is trying to say a big no, this is not me. So true ,as your choices to load more and more packages on your shoulders wherever you go, that what made the person you are in shock to face right now. It is a very truthful moment and here how willing you are able to receive it, that what will determine your next step. It is a moment like facing death, even it is a reality , many try to deny it. It is that moment that you lose yourself in trying to replay the scenario and how you got there. What makes you in acceptance in what you see. It is the moment that you realize how deep was and is your wounds that you permit yourself to soak in your bleeding and no response. There was no action on your side to heal or stop your bleeding. You allowed it to flow as in deep down yourself, you are refusing to live, you are happy to go in your coma ,even there were many voices that are trying to keep you alive. I do not know how to describe it more than you are willing to say goodbye and give up with no regret. As living in such deep pain ,no one like it. Thinking that when we say goodbye is the norm. You do not feel anything around. Yet, God is keeping you alive and does not want you to go. So weird ,isn't it?
Each day your questions never stop, why God? And what is all this about. I do not understand. Iam truly do not feel alive, my breath does not come easily. Iam falling down deeply with no resistance and a silent voice. And here again ,another awakening moment, more voices are trying to keep you alive and turning your attention to His presence. Your questions go deeper and deeper and no end. More choices to make to hold onto pain and never let go. This is me, and this is where I go every single time, the darkness is trying to pull you more to her side. You sense that you support her in her desire. No hope or no other way, this is your life and that is how, I collect more and more packages through the way and refusing to let them down. Long time and long way ,carrying these packages with all the bleeding and the scars within and outside. How hurtful is that? To be in a place of martyrdom not alive. It is said that we Middle Eastern by nature are destined to be emotional and controlled by their emotions more than many races as we see through humans and how they look like. We see the heart and mind working together and what is beyond that. Being unable to express your voice or even what does it mean to have a voice. A voice that will give you the power of choice and to express these choices.. And if anyone understand that about you, it will become the norm that along the way ,you are not allowed to express your voice and choice.
So, it becomes culturally mindset interactions. According to where you came from and how the common lines how women are being treated and your status builds up the way how others will treat you and here comes the undeniable point. That if you did not have a voice, why are you thinking to have one now and what do you know about it and who told you there could be a voice and a choice? so, When something different is created within you, here comes the power conflict. No subjectivity here. By means ,a common standards to deal with a person no according to how they were treated in the past and shapping a pattern of disrespect and discrimination against the person since you can not control him or her ,so God is not in that. It cross-cultural power conflict. The attempt to change the norm. The desire to establish a standard agreement. Iam not my past, Iam not my background, Iam not my race, Iam a creation of ONE GOD just like you. What is your dreams and desires that you are asking God for and if you have them, why you do not believe that others can have theirs to? And what is the point of shaming others of their past deliberately to keep them down.
It is this moment when you realize that there is no difference in human nature, no matter the language you speak, what you wear , where you live, how we think are so much alike. What serves our interests we go for it. And here power conflict never end. To live and let me live is an idealistic standard , hard to be reached. The norm is not changing from place to place. You find yourself chained in the same old patterns of the common understanding about how culturally a person is being dealt with. Human Rights come to be a job not a true call, Justice in question as how the society is trying to frame your life ,is something stronger than you own limited power. Your eyes and mind are trying to find clues and go back to yourself and address how you come to this point and how you allowed yourself to be there. It is you in the bottom line. Choosing to surrender to your coma and no choice to resist. And when resistance come to your mind, everyone is in a shock, what? Are you crazy? who give you the right to resist. You feel the pain more deep within like a sword breaking through you and you still alive. Oh! Jesus. I imagine myself , standing among the crowd, saying no, I want that voice, I am proud of my choice. To stand for who Iam, not what you want me to be, submissive and voiceless. He wants me alive for a reason , not invisible, not an open ground for disrespect and alienation. Let's be honest, what all this about and calm down this meaningless conflicts within first and go straight forward to the mission to build something here on earth . Life is not a job or a promotion that many no last for long. Life is a mission of good works and giving Him all glory for what He has put within you . I may let you to put me down all the way, yet, you did not do God's will in respecting each human as a creation in God's image. Imagine that we honor every soul in honor to God, do you think we still can find hurt and pain on earth?
It is all come back to you , what do you allow into your life .And how you give honor to God in each choice you make. All the bleeding and the scars, you allowed them ,so if you have the power to allow the bad into your life, why not choosing to give it a chance for the good to come. Allow yourself to resist the patterns of the past to determine you present. It is the inner power to choose honoring God in each step you take, I may look bad in your eyes, yet, I am following the voice from above, that is telling me I want you alive as you belong to me and I made you this way. An opening conversation with The Mighty ONE who is asking me to follow His voice and it is scary as you do not understand what does it mean. For tens of times He is asking me to trust in Him ,even I do not understand. Say sorry to yourself and the person you are facing now. Telling her Iam so sorry that I let you go through all of this. Forgive me and let us start over again with consciousness that God is there. With His endless merciful loving heart is carrying you through. To reconcile with yourself ,this where you have to start, healing starts within you taking the first step and to love the person you are right now, no matter what. The beating voices will never stop putting you down, it is all go back to you if you are going to keep inviting them back in,or say sorry I have someone to take care of that is me ,the one God made just as He made you too. With a smile on your face, say Hello to the new you within.BY: ME" The Old Ancient Woman"
And here there are moments that hit you so hard. Trying to walk you up , letting you to pay attention to how awful your life is turned out. You are in shock ,you are in denial. Your ego is trying to say a big no, this is not me. So true ,as your choices to load more and more packages on your shoulders wherever you go, that what made the person you are in shock to face right now. It is a very truthful moment and here how willing you are able to receive it, that what will determine your next step. It is a moment like facing death, even it is a reality , many try to deny it. It is that moment that you lose yourself in trying to replay the scenario and how you got there. What makes you in acceptance in what you see. It is the moment that you realize how deep was and is your wounds that you permit yourself to soak in your bleeding and no response. There was no action on your side to heal or stop your bleeding. You allowed it to flow as in deep down yourself, you are refusing to live, you are happy to go in your coma ,even there were many voices that are trying to keep you alive. I do not know how to describe it more than you are willing to say goodbye and give up with no regret. As living in such deep pain ,no one like it. Thinking that when we say goodbye is the norm. You do not feel anything around. Yet, God is keeping you alive and does not want you to go. So weird ,isn't it?
Each day your questions never stop, why God? And what is all this about. I do not understand. Iam truly do not feel alive, my breath does not come easily. Iam falling down deeply with no resistance and a silent voice. And here again ,another awakening moment, more voices are trying to keep you alive and turning your attention to His presence. Your questions go deeper and deeper and no end. More choices to make to hold onto pain and never let go. This is me, and this is where I go every single time, the darkness is trying to pull you more to her side. You sense that you support her in her desire. No hope or no other way, this is your life and that is how, I collect more and more packages through the way and refusing to let them down. Long time and long way ,carrying these packages with all the bleeding and the scars within and outside. How hurtful is that? To be in a place of martyrdom not alive. It is said that we Middle Eastern by nature are destined to be emotional and controlled by their emotions more than many races as we see through humans and how they look like. We see the heart and mind working together and what is beyond that. Being unable to express your voice or even what does it mean to have a voice. A voice that will give you the power of choice and to express these choices.. And if anyone understand that about you, it will become the norm that along the way ,you are not allowed to express your voice and choice.
So, it becomes culturally mindset interactions. According to where you came from and how the common lines how women are being treated and your status builds up the way how others will treat you and here comes the undeniable point. That if you did not have a voice, why are you thinking to have one now and what do you know about it and who told you there could be a voice and a choice? so, When something different is created within you, here comes the power conflict. No subjectivity here. By means ,a common standards to deal with a person no according to how they were treated in the past and shapping a pattern of disrespect and discrimination against the person since you can not control him or her ,so God is not in that. It cross-cultural power conflict. The attempt to change the norm. The desire to establish a standard agreement. Iam not my past, Iam not my background, Iam not my race, Iam a creation of ONE GOD just like you. What is your dreams and desires that you are asking God for and if you have them, why you do not believe that others can have theirs to? And what is the point of shaming others of their past deliberately to keep them down.
It is this moment when you realize that there is no difference in human nature, no matter the language you speak, what you wear , where you live, how we think are so much alike. What serves our interests we go for it. And here power conflict never end. To live and let me live is an idealistic standard , hard to be reached. The norm is not changing from place to place. You find yourself chained in the same old patterns of the common understanding about how culturally a person is being dealt with. Human Rights come to be a job not a true call, Justice in question as how the society is trying to frame your life ,is something stronger than you own limited power. Your eyes and mind are trying to find clues and go back to yourself and address how you come to this point and how you allowed yourself to be there. It is you in the bottom line. Choosing to surrender to your coma and no choice to resist. And when resistance come to your mind, everyone is in a shock, what? Are you crazy? who give you the right to resist. You feel the pain more deep within like a sword breaking through you and you still alive. Oh! Jesus. I imagine myself , standing among the crowd, saying no, I want that voice, I am proud of my choice. To stand for who Iam, not what you want me to be, submissive and voiceless. He wants me alive for a reason , not invisible, not an open ground for disrespect and alienation. Let's be honest, what all this about and calm down this meaningless conflicts within first and go straight forward to the mission to build something here on earth . Life is not a job or a promotion that many no last for long. Life is a mission of good works and giving Him all glory for what He has put within you . I may let you to put me down all the way, yet, you did not do God's will in respecting each human as a creation in God's image. Imagine that we honor every soul in honor to God, do you think we still can find hurt and pain on earth?
It is all come back to you , what do you allow into your life .And how you give honor to God in each choice you make. All the bleeding and the scars, you allowed them ,so if you have the power to allow the bad into your life, why not choosing to give it a chance for the good to come. Allow yourself to resist the patterns of the past to determine you present. It is the inner power to choose honoring God in each step you take, I may look bad in your eyes, yet, I am following the voice from above, that is telling me I want you alive as you belong to me and I made you this way. An opening conversation with The Mighty ONE who is asking me to follow His voice and it is scary as you do not understand what does it mean. For tens of times He is asking me to trust in Him ,even I do not understand. Say sorry to yourself and the person you are facing now. Telling her Iam so sorry that I let you go through all of this. Forgive me and let us start over again with consciousness that God is there. With His endless merciful loving heart is carrying you through. To reconcile with yourself ,this where you have to start, healing starts within you taking the first step and to love the person you are right now, no matter what. The beating voices will never stop putting you down, it is all go back to you if you are going to keep inviting them back in,or say sorry I have someone to take care of that is me ,the one God made just as He made you too. With a smile on your face, say Hello to the new you within.BY: ME" The Old Ancient Woman"
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