Even it is not clear yet. Even it is hard to know. Even you feel deep down that something is not o.k. Even the truth is keeping running away from you. You sense it. You see it within your heart. Maybe, you can not put all the pieces together to make sense. Yet, nothing make sense. Will conflict and struggle be the norm of your life and why all this is happening and keeping repeating itself with different faces and names? The big question is: Is this what life mean? Is this the real world anyone can live? Or There is something deeper beyond your understanding? Anger ,spoken and unspoken words are controlling the day of the human being. Certain behavior patterns are continuously being projected through the day.
It becomes like a big package for someone to carry on daily basis. How many am I going to insult? How many am I going to demeaning? How many am I going to sabotage? How many am I going to control? How many am I going o deceit? How many am I going to use? How many am I going to manipulate? How many am I going to inbox? How many am I going to confuse? How many am I going to stab at the back? How many am I going to spoil their work day? How many am I going to let fail? How many am I going to label? How long am I going to spy on? How many am I going to gossip about? How many am I going to crush them under the bus? the list is so long to end. what kind of life is that ? Are you a human or appointed by the devil to rule over the earth?
The list never ends as each day ,each hour something will be added on. So hard to live a day like that. It is so hard to feel you have dignity and value on the earth. What am I made for? and why am I in this place? The world drives you to insanity that nothing around can make sense. When people focus on people , nothing will be build as it takes only one bad apple to spoil the whole harvest and nothing will make sense. It takes one word from the devil to turn life into hell. Closing the vision and building thick wall among you and the grace of God that is found all over around. Yet, your package blackened your eyesight that you ca not breath. Fear dwells in each corner of the place. Truth never been told, and when it reveals itself ,you only hate yourself as you never imagine how hard it feels and change you for ever, you will never be the same. Walking with a broken heart will be the norm and who cares. First Jesus died from a broken heart. He came with salvation and here the story is keeping repeating itself even after thousands of years after Jesus death. The roots of evil lies within the seed of sin that still dwell in our flesh. Rising above the flesh is hard to grasp or believed within the world that still controlled by tangible things, and sparkly world where it can take you? I can not tell.
Walking with a broken heart is the norm, who hears or feels the real pain within. How many broken hearts around? And who sees the cause that was built in through words, actions, attitudes and stories being told. How many anticipate in that global suicide of human souls? No wonder the evil on rise and no sound for those who walk with broken hearts to the unknown and not believing even in themselves. Allowing the world to crush our soul this means giving the right of God to the evil with no resistance or raising voice. We are surprised shockingly when something happen and end lives of hundred in many different ways, forgetting the part we play to fill this evil action with loads and loads of human junky actions forgetting what we sow at the end. Never mind. Iam not a saint or a prophet ,Iam only a person who looks the the world with a different eye.
Seeing and witnessing God's goodness on the Earth even to those who do not believe in Him. We are either specks of fire or goodness. Both exist and it will never end. I as a person take responsibility of my choices and words I say. I take responsibility of my personal boundaries and how to handle life even everything around is crushing me in . It is too much to be explained in one page. It is our human scenario that keep repeating itself over and over and the lesson never been learnt. Our life is a journey, may be it is filed with thorns or smoothly flat that takes you to a whole different realm of experiences and shocking facts, that you never expect they could exist.
Days and years pass, and still there is no definite answer to all of this. A big burning fire that consuming any beauty around or within. If you can see what am i talking about,we all will be united to push this away and not allowing the evil to destroy whatever goodness does exist on this earth. If you can understand, if you can believe that each one of us play a part in any big results are seen by the world ,then you will stop and ask yourself what is my part in this? Is it good or...... then I have to evaluate and reevaluate my presence here on Earth, feel the truth of yourself, from ashes to ashes, from dust to dust we are.What is in between , it all comes back to you , do not blame anyone else , even you walk with a broken heart, keep fight for the good .BY: ME" The Old Ancient Woman"
